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Hi, welcome! I'm CJ. It's been a while since I've been active on Dreamwidth but in 2024 I am trying to get back into it. This journal is partially private because I use it as a diary outside of occasional fandom stuff and book reviews, but I'll happily grant access if you DM me (or just comment on this post) and are 18+. I'm always happy to make new friends and am interested in reading about all different kinds of life experiences.

About me:
  • she/her, mid 30s, in the medical field. Depressed and vaguely neurospicy. Basic-bitch interests. Dog mom, no human kids. In the middle of a divorce right now which is taking up most of my emotional energy so I will complain about it from time to time. I overuse this one emoji in particular: 🙃
  • my fandoms: mostly anime at this point. Add me immediately if you're a Welcome to Demon School! Iruma-kun fan (there are dozens of us!). At the moment I'm also into Blue Lock and Spy x Family, and my lifetime faves include xxxHolic, JJBA, Kuroko no Basket, Monthly Girl's Nozaki-kun, and Gintama. I don't really get that fannish energy (iykyk) for things other than anime, but I also love reading and am usually in the middle of some random fantasy or romance novel. Fanfiction is my love language and I write a very normal amount of it. 
  • my original fiction: all medium-spicy wlw paranormal romances, as far as the eye can see. There used to be a little more variety but I guess my brain's not as interesting as it once was. I write about writing sometimes. My dream is to get published someday but I keep reading books written by fantastic, genius individuals that destroy my self-esteem and drive me to drink- if I write a hype post about a book here, that probably means that it falls into that category.
I'm [archiveofourown.org profile] bogreport  on Ao3 (NSFW, don't click unless you're a freak) (previously [archiveofourown.org profile] StormySteady but I recently had to abandon that account/ make almost everything on it anonymous because of a bad actor IRL), rainbowjar#9576 on Discord. Other than that I don't really do social media. I wish I could, but Tumblr and Twitter make my brain hurt. 

Movies!

Jun. 29th, 2024 10:17 pm
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 Usually I don't watch that many movies. I see trailers, think, "oh, I want to watch that when it comes out", and then forget that it exists. Even things I'm super pumped about- like, oops, I was so excited for the most recent John Wick, but then kept forgetting about it until I missed it in theaters. Is it out on streaming yet? Idk. I don't even have any streaming services anymore except for Prime Video, Crunchyroll, and the Peacock that I'm stealing from my sister, so I probably wouldn't be able to see it anyway... also I lost the remote for my smart TV box thing so I can't even figure out how to watch TV other than on my laptop... my life is truly a mess; this is so embarrassing I'm going to shut up now. 

BUT YEAH. Movies. I like going to the movies, but never remember to do it. Especially since I don't have anybody to go with most of the time. But the other day I went to the theater with my Maryland friend, watched something that I hadn't even really wanted to see, and still walked out of the theater with the thought that "wow, I forgot how much I love going to the movies!"

So I did some research. And the Regal theaters near me have this "unlimited" plan for $20/month that lets you go to as many movies as you want. There is a deal right now where if you buy three months, you get a 4th month free. And I got to thinking- there are at least 2 movies that I want to see each month. And since the changes with my work schedule mean that I only am required to go to the office/ leave the house three times a week, I have been searching for external things to motivate me to be less of a hermit. I am also trying to diversify the kind of media I consume, because I want my creative well to stay full and healthy. Going to a movie every week would help with that. 

Long story short, I am now enrolled in Regal's Unlimited plan. I saw 2 movies this week and had a good time. 

Movie #1: Mad Max Furiosa. What you would expect. Very slick visuals. Cool as fuck worldbuilding. Nice for your eyes and for shock value. Characters and plot are not groundbreaking. 

Movie #2: Blue Lock Episode Nagi. I watched the sub version because I'm a weeb. I have the option of going back and watching the dub version for no additional cost, which is cool! Except that it's not the kind of movie that's worth watching twice, especially if you've read the manga. Sorry, Nagi, but you are literally the least interesting character in Blue Lock. 

Barou's two minutes of screentime were unexpectedly hype. Bachira's first goal in the team Z/V match was well done (although I'm biased because every time I see Bachira I get such severe cuteness aggression that it puts everyone around me in danger). Zantetsu was naked for a weirdly prolonged amount of time. They managed to condense the entire second selection to a three-minute musical montage, which was fucking hilarious. And most importantly, I always get a weird kick out of it when Reo cries, and as expected, he cries a lot in this movie. The fanservice was fanservicey enough. 

I don't dislike NagiReo. They are married background characters in my longfic, and I have spent a lot of time thinking about how their relationship would develop in that one highly specific AU. But I maintain that Nagi is not interesting enough to support a whole movie about him. Reo is! But they didn't lean into that at all and actually cut out some of his best character moments from the manga (like how he sort of united team V under his leadership), so???

The movie was still watchable though! And I'm looking forward to watching many more movies the next few months <3

 

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 Book recommendation time! (Full disclosure- I wrote this review while drinking)

I read Winter's Orbit by Everina Maxwell almost all in one sitting the other day and VERY very much enjoyed it. 

This was another serendipitous find: I saw the cover art for her second book, Ocean's Echo, on my library app and thought it looked intriguing. Then, I clicked on it, saw it was a queer romance space opera, and sighed in resignation, realizing immediately that I was going to go out and read the whole series now even though I have a lot of other things on my "to read" list. 

I would eventually come to find that this was a misunderstanding: the two books are not actually a series, they just take place in loosely the same universe but involve none of the same characters or even planets at this point. But nevertheless I put a hold on the first book first. Luckily I was only hold for like two days before it became available. I have no idea why there's not more demand for it, because it was utterly enchanting from the first page. 

This book splits perspectives between two protagonists/ romantic leads. The first one introduced, Kiem, a roguish space prince, somehow managed to be entirely charming though a little rough around the edges, despite the author making it abundantly clear that his main personality trait is supposed to be "entirely charming, but a little rough around the edges". I'm listening to an audiobook now (I won't say the title because I don't recommend it) with a similar "himbo with a heart of gold" sort of character who, despite doing many more charming things that our buddy Kiem here, has somehow managed to fall short of the mark of actually being charming. Idk. I don't know how to explain it. Anyway, Kiem's deal is that he's the emperor's grandson, but sort of the one she doesn't talk about and has been involved in some scandals due to drunken carousing and free love and blah blah blah. The inciting event: his cousin just died, and so now to keep an important treaty with one of their vassal states (planets) solvent, Kiem has to marry his widower. 

It's a neat, contrived, fanfic-like plot that immediately had me hooked. From the very first chapter, I was salivating for more. My tastes are simple, and even the appetizer satisfied. 

But then it gets better. Because the real best character in this book who has temporarily taken the role of being my emotional support blorbo gets introduced several chapters in. This is Jainan, the grieving husband of Kiem's cousin who just died. And he is EVERYTHING. His character and situation is revealed slowly, and more by what isn't said rather than what is. The very first scene is him admittedly feeling dead inside, preparing for the funeral. The chapter goes on, and slowly, you start to realize: he's said that his world was tilted off its axis since his husband died. He said he was worried about the future. He has a blunt, dazed sort of affect. But he never says at any point that he is sad that his husband died, despite Kiem in his POV having made the assumption from observing them from the outside that the two were a very strong and functional couple. 

Then, the real story starts to unroll: it had actually been an abusive relationship. He's mentally prepared for his hastily-thrown-together new marriage to be more of the same, can't fathom that it won't be, but then, shock of all shocks, Kiem is a decent person, they fall in love, and the healing process begins. 

Though this book also does have a genuine plot besides the romance (political intrigue, shady mining operations, cooked books, podracing, wilderness survival, bandit rehabilitation, you name it this book has it), the romance is deeply integrated into every part of it and takes the front seat. So, even though the plot has some surprises, you can immediately foretell from the setup exactly what sequence of romantic and emotional beats it's going to follow. It's more of a book that makes you feel comfortable than one that makes you think deeply. But it does it in a really deeply satisfying way. Reading it made my brain feel like it was drinking chicken soup on a sick day or something. I plan to reread it in the near future. 

So yeah, pick it up! I awarded it the highest honor: "buying it for my own collection after my library loan ended". I did end up reading the second book and didn't love it as much (I had an aversion to one of the protagonists for very specific personal reasons 🙃), but it was well-done too. Very much looking forward to more by this author.

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 So... in this, the year 2024, are we really getting a Hana Kimi anime adaptation? 

https://www.crunchyroll.com/news/latest/2024/5/15/hana-kimi-anime-hisaya-nakajo-crunchyroll

Teenage me would have loved this  😂 
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Yes, I am an aging white bisexual and I love Eurovision. So sue me x.x 

This was a special year! My favorite song in the finals won by a landslide! "I broke the code, woah-oh-oh" has literally been stuck in my head all week; it is possibly the most aggressive earworm that I have ever come across. Love love love it!

The song that has the most plays on my Spotify is one that didn't make it past the semifinals, though, and that was Denmark's song, "Sand". It is relevant to my current situation. Also relevant to my fanfic I'm writing, so it made my writing playlist. A high honor, lol.

The complete shortlist of songs that made it to my "2024" playlist from Eurovision this year are as follows: 

"The Code"- Nemo (Switzerland)
"Doomsday Blue"- Bambie Thug (Ireland. My Irish-citizen BIL expressed so much scorn for this song and for Eurovision in general that it's hilarious 😂)
"Ulveham"- Gåte (Norway. How did this song not do better it was pure FIRE and the visuals were SO COOL???)
"SAND"- Saba (Denmark)
"The Tower"- LUNA (forget which country)
"Rim Tim Tagi Dim"- Baby Lasagna (also forget lol. "I'm gonna miss you all, but mostly the cat")
"Teresa & Maria"- alyona alyona and Jerry Hall (Ukraine)
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"Duolingo on Ice", presenting such songs as "Spanish or Vanish". 
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Eleanor Oliphant is Completely Fine, by Gail Honeyman

https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/35900387

Jesus Christ. Talk about audiobooks that made me openly weep in a public park while walking my dog. 

I recently have kind of nailed down both my taste in books and the genre that I write as "characters with bonkers amount of trauma that somehow end up in a comedy story", and this is exactly that. Both the bonkers trauma and the hilarious comedy are top-notch. Absolutely S-tier. Trust me, I also laughed a lot, insanely, in front of onlookers in a second public park while listening to this book as well. 

Yeah, it's tied up a bit too neatly at the end. I don't love love the end. But God. The amount that I relate to the main character- from her cute moments to her unhinged alcoholic moments to her completely-gut-wrenching SPOILER SPOILER SPOILER- shit. There were so many times that this book could have turned into some cringey thing where Eleanor was punished and ostracized for being her balls-to-the-wall-WTF-self, but that never happened. It was gentle and comforting, even when it was super fucking dark. IDK how the author did it. But yeah, everybody should read this book. 
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 I finished a book recently! One Last Stop by Casey McQuiston. 

Background info: I've gotten really into audiobooks recently. Since the divorce, my house has been super creepy quiet and, since I haven't really had the energy to watch TV (I'm not sure why my brain thinks it's easier to listen to a 10-plus-hour audiobook than it is to watch a 20-minute TV show, or listen to a one-hour podcast, but such is life), I've been listening to a lot of them. 

All different genres. Some novels. Some inspirational shit. A few Great Courses, though these often have had waitlists. My library has an extremely satisfactory online catalog, so I've had no end of options. 

My process for picking out my next book has been this:

Go to Libby. Filter by "available now" and "audiobooks". Do not add any other filters. Then, chose the best thing from the first page. 

This hasn't led me astray yet. I reiterate- it is seriously fucking crazy how much good content there is immediately available for free at this library. Nowhere else I've lived has a library system that compares. I deadass let my Buffalo and hometown library cards lapse over the past few years, since I found I haven't needed them. 

So, I've been using serendipity to fill my creative well. 

A week or so ago, I cast this line and hooked Casey McQuiston's debut novel, "Red, White, and Royal Blue," which I would later come to learn has a direct-to-streaming movie adaptation as well as an AO3 fanbase that puts all of my multiple current niche-as-fuck fandoms put together to shame. I'm kind of surprised I'd never heard of it before.

So, I went into that book blind and finished it in a matter of days. My fondest memory is when I was listening to it while driving through DC at rush hour to my friend's house, but my GPS got rerouted so it took me the stupidest most dangerous route. So there I was, basically having a panic attack behind the wheel, and that's the exact chapter of the book took a turn from being like a goofy millenial humor piece to being medium-spicy gay erotica, and dammit even though I was super distracted I didn't have the heart to turn it off so I could focus better on the road. 

Well, I guess I made it to Bethesda eventually?

Then, I went down this whole rabbit hole trying to figure out what fandom it had spawned out of before the serial numbers had been filed off, because lmao, this person is clearly One Of Us. At first I thought maybe like a modern day Merlin AU? 

I thought about it a while, and then I eventually decided that, no, while it's immediately obvious that Casey McQuiston is a fanfic writer, I don't actually think that this book was straight-up fanfic. It's got a little bit of something else to it too.

Which brings me, in a roundabout way, to One Last Stop. Because this book didn't feel so much like fanfiction to me. It felt like something original, and quite enjoyable. Maybe a little on the "twee" end of things, where everyone's LGBT and nothing hurts, and also it's set in NYC which immediately takes points off in my book (FUCK new york), but whatever. I ended up liking it despite all that.

The basic plot:

August Landry is a former girl detective (but only for one specific case: locating her mom's brother who has been missing for decades) who is absolutely determined to not return to The Life. Hoping to lay low, she moves to NYC, starts taking classes for some random-ass major at Brooklyn College, and starts working for some greasy spoon joint called Pancake Billy's House of Pancakes. Great, mission accomplished, fade to black.

But then, she has a real-cute meet-cute with a girl on the subway who she later learns ~dOeS nOt ExIsT iN hEr TiMeLiNe~ and ~cAnNoT pHySiCaLlY lEaVe ThE tRaIn~ because she's supposed to be living in the 1970s and it all goes cray-cray from there. Her roommate, a spiritual medium who (gradually, over the course of the book) you realize has magic powers For Real, determines that she is not a ghost. Her other roommate, who is like a highly educated electrical engineer who gave up her degree to make art out of frog bones and inject sass into most of the scenes in the book, helps her figure out that her love interest, Jane, is tied to the electrical energy of the train. And August discovers, to her absolute emotional ruination, that the more she kisses Jane, the more the other girl remembers about her own life and the other characters that played a part in it, which helps her become more real. So then it turns in to that trope that I am HORRIBLY, DOWN-BAD WEAK for, where at least one the characters has feelings for the other but can't state them honestly but is also somehow in a situation where they're kissing/ casually fucking etc. 

Then, the feelings get requited. REEEEE!

And then they do some Oceans Eleven heist shit to blow up the train line's electrical system to hopefully free her from the train. 

Also, at one point Train Girl Jane gets so horny that her emotions blackout the train, giving her and August the opportunity to fuck. 

[Circling back to a previous theme: I was also listening to this as an audiobook. And the love confession/ subsequent trainfucking occurred while I was weaving my way through heavy traffic on route 66. 

...you know, I had always though that people were exaggerating when they said shit like "ohhh your fanfic made me squeal and flap all my limbs around!!! omg" But... to my chagrin (and possible death), I did sort of start flailing in the middle of that perilous highway.]

But yeah. Ahem. Cough. It's an excellent book. Five stars. 

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"I want my hat back", by Jon Klassen
http://coolpicsbro.com/m/2685

The inspiring tale of an ambiguous bear-creature who, upon losing his beloved hat, must find the strength to seek beyond the conventional social channels in order to recover it. The austerity of the art and stilted, repetitive nature of the prose provides a clear commentary on the apathy of modern man/woodland creature while at the same time evoking important questions for every age and reading level: from whence does this apathy arise and how, if possible, can it be transcended?

In other news, I have a French oral presentation in one hour and am therefore procrastinating like it's my job :/

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Here is a journal article from a few weeks ago which details the positive effects of looking at cute baby animals on productivity. What an awesome way to justify my habit of procrastinating by watching cat videos!

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