Starting a fire with friction has been one of the coolest, most-rewarding things I’ve ever learned.

Learning how to start a fire with rubbing two pieces of wood together, is connecting with the source of where everything comes from.

The fire appears, as smoke first, from the mere application of focused attention and intention, combined with skill, and carefully picked and crafter materials.

The fire emerges from what seems to be a place beyond this world that we can perceive, and arrives here as a micro-fire happening in a micr-bundle of wood dust.

Learning to make a fire unlocked possibilities in me that were dormant. And learning to make it with friction fire touched on something so ancestral that I became indigenous to this land.

The Invitation

Join us for an afternoon of villaging at the beach (all ages welcome), forming teams and learning what it takes to work together to start a fire using a bow drill.

Where: Ella Beach, T’sou-ke Nation (Sooke, BC)
When: May 2nd, 2026 — 3 to 5:30 PM (PDT)
Cost: Free
Details & Registration: https://luma.com/67i2udzu

See you there!

Love,
Jorge

P.S.: The current advanced technology cuts of off from learning certain foundational technologies that have been part of humanity for millenia.

These cut creates a certain kind of pain that we carry when these foundational technologies are missing from our life. Read more about it here in my article “The Technolgy Ladder”:

And also here on Technopenuriaphobia on the StartOver world: https://technopenuriaphobia.startover.world/

I’ve been on this journey of intellectually wanting to understand and conceptualize pressure. I see it now in hindsight.

The thing is that nothing changes or transforms. So, I shifted my attention to noticing and choosing when I’m using and not using pressure.

This has become a more alive and embodied research revealing a mountain of treasures that were inside all along.

Where does pressure come from?

Perhaps you thought that pressure came from your partner, or from your parents, or from the government, or your friends.

But the pressure wasn't really a conscious thought. It was more the normal way you operated in life.

Pressure was not even a consideration, it was just was a reality of life, an consequence of being alive. You simply felt “the pressure” and you automatically, mechanically moved and did things with it.

But, where does it actually come from?

Well, the pressure actually comes from me. I'm at the source of the pressure.
I'm the one creating the pressure; Not an external force as I used to see it.

The pressure sounds like:
- You need to prove yourself better
- How can you help others (so that I can be actually superior and not inferior)
- How can you be of value (so that you could stay on top)
- Don't show your weakness, they will use it against you
- Don't reveal yourself, you will be ridiculed
- What are all the possible cases how this could go, you need to have it all thought out before you make a move, and never reveal that you don't know
- If you don't know, you're clearly inappropriate

And the list goes on and on...

This pressure creates a kind of pain.

At first, it's a pleasurable pain. Excitement, exhilaration, ecstasy. It's new, you have the energy, let's go, you're motivated, you like it, you're emotionally invested. This is the first phase of the pressure. Let’s say, the positive side.

But then, the next phase of the pattern emerges — the suffering.

Overwhelm. How am I going to deal with all these things I'm doing? How am I going to keep this image I've painted when it's not what is true right now?

Exhaustion. I can't keep all the balls up in the air. I can't keep essentially lying to myself and others. I can sustain the lies. The lie that others are pressuring me.

Collapse. It cannot be. What is, it cannot be. Denial. Breakdown. In the swamp. Paralized.

The heartbreaking truth is this:
Souring pressure like this is a game designed to fail and create suffering.
Suffering, not just for you, but suffering for others too.

Creating under pressure is a strategy designed to fail from the get go.

So, next time you’re super excited because your received the next vision that is going to finally solve your financial, and relationship problems, and you go like a beast with blinders steamrolling over anything and everything before you…

Beep! Beep! Beep! this is your sign that something might be up.

- Ugghh, Jorge, this is just how I create!
- Braaa, just go with the flow, let the vision guide you
- Yo, but I’m so convinced that this is it, this time it will be different

Have you had enough of sourcing the same game? (real question, by the way)

You might be ready to upgrade your Thoughtware and get some new possibilities of games to play.

What now?

- Go to https://startover.xyz
- Get an EHP about this at the Weekly EHP Dojo: https://luma.com/xb4nkq8j
- Download my free e-book Emotions Unclogged: https://jorgepedret.kit.com/emotions-unclogged
- Read and do the experiments at: https://pressureyourself.mystrikingly.com/

P.S.: Watch Angela from AKXYZMAKES 3D Printing & Design, printing the next batch of Alchemist Tetrahedrons: https://www.instagram.com/p/DW6mjrjAAAY/

Get your own Alchemist Tetrahedron here: https://jorgepedret.gumroad.com/l/alchemist-tetrahedron

Dear reader,

I’ve been working with my hesitation to create, speak, tell stories and be in the world, mainly noticing the blockages and mechanisms that inhibit me from showing what I’m really up to.

I’m experimenting with noticing the line between creating and surviving. When I have access to following the natural impulses to create, and when I twist that impulse and use it to survive.

Life is not waiting for you. Before you know it, life has passed, your children are old, you are old, you have grown, and what has changed?

Are you living the life you want to live? Are you the hero you’ve been training yourself to be? Or are you settling for just being the fantasy of it?

They’re both fantasies, and still you have a choice.

At My Parents’ House

My 3 children and I spent 3 weeks at my parents’ house in Ottawa, Canada.

These weeks, I rejoiced in being present with my parents. The joy that there around, alive, and well, that they can tell me stories from their childhood and mine.

Hey. Life is happening here and now. Neutral Observation creates a field for infinite research possibilities and high-level fun, no matter where you are.

February Recap

Epic Family Adventure

At the beginning of February, I flew to Ontario with Melissa, our children and Nicole. We landed at the Toronto Pearson Airport after a 5-hour plane ride from Victoria.

We rented a car and drove to our next destination: Souls Path Retreat in Blackstock, ON. Here we spent one week, where Melissa and Nicole would deliver the first Rage Club in Ontario on February 7th.

We spent 6 days in this magical lodge. Outside was covered in at least a foot of snow, windstorms, and was minus 22 degrees Celsius.

At Souls Path, a land-based project with infrastructure to hold a small village, my fire for what is possible for human beings got reignited.

Visiting My Parents

Melissa and Nicole went to their Women of Earth 5-day immersive training in West Virginia, while I stayed with my parents in Ottawa.

Tech For Celebrating People

An old friend and client reached out to me about a project. We had a call and a few emails back and forth, and now we’re collaborating to create an amazing project about celebrating people.

We are creating a platform that encourages people to celebrate the relationships in their lives through telling true stories and videos that touch hearts.

If you want to stay in the loop, you may see Tony’s work and enter your email here: https://www.seemyclients.com/celebrator

New Article: The Patriarchy Within Me

I’m discovering new layers in me that block intimacy with myself, with others and the world. As a researcher of culture, I’m actively noticing what I want to create and what I’m actually creating, and sometimes there’s an abysmal difference. And when I fall asleep, my teammates are not too far to let me know.

I wrote an article sharing what I’m discovering about how I, and other men and women, covertly participate in the culture that is exterminating Life on Earth at the fastest rate possible.

I feel glad that I’m choosing to be part of a culture and teams that know about my darkest parts and that still choose to love me and be with me.

For March

I’m heading back to Vancouver Island on March 8th. Here is what’s unfolding in March:

Magic Waters Nature Immersion

We’re starting our weekly Nature Immersion program for children next week on Thursday, March 20th.

If you’re in the Sooke area and want your family to have this possibility, sign up here: https://www.magicwaters.org/nature-immersion-spring-2026

Men’s Circle: Earth’s Heart in Sooke

Every other Thursday, we gather in Sooke around the fire and the trees to let the heart speak, and be nourished by the kind of food that the heart brings.

What nourishes your heart? What doesn’t? How can we nourish our hearts together as men?

This space intends to be a space for researching this question.

Expand The Box Canada

Are you interested in bringing Expand The Box to Canada?

Expand The Box is a 5-day in-person training space for upgrading the ways you think that limit you from creating the results you want in your life.

In a world where Standard Human Intelligence Thoughtware (S.H.I.T.) no longer serves to live fully, this training exists as a way to liquify your box, tap into the intelligence of your heart and gain the skill of creating and holding space for the culture you want to see in this world.

Is this you? Learn more about it and sign up here: https://forms.gle/qZM7n9wtF6zdqLpu5

Emotional Healing Process Dojo

I want to invite everyone to this space.

This is a core essential piece for villaging and creating spaces that regenerate the planet and our energy.

Emotions that are uncared for drain the energy needed for anything else to become possible.

By healing your emotions, you reclaim your energy and clear space for creating something new.

EHP Dojo happens every Thursday from 8-9:30AM PDT.

You meet with a partner, and you take turns holding space for each other.

Learn more about the EHP Dojo here: https://ehpdojo.mystrikingly.com/

Join the EHP Dojo group on Telegram here: https://t.me/+2mPldi3oTbs3YmRh

With Love,
Jorge

P.S. If you are in Sooke and want to grab a coffee and talk about what you’re researching in your own life, hit reply. I’d love to hear what’s moving for you.

Also, if you’re online and want to talk with me, hit reply.

Before and while you’re reading this, I invite you to center yourself, ground to the Earth, and declare your personal bubble of space.

Get here and now.

You have the choice to read this with what you already know, or to read it from a place where there’s space to breathe and for something new. An unknown place where you are at the edge of your experience, in your body, with your heart, your sensations, present in the small here and now, with the sensations of your physical, mental, emotional, energetic and even archetypal bodies.

Life Starts With Feeling

As I navigate to feel more, I keep finding layers and layers that cover up what I’m really feeling, mechanisms obfuscating what is really happening inside me.

I hear the warning voices saying:

—Jorge, don’t go there.
—Go where?
—Nobody will understand.
—Understand what?

I keep feeling, and I sense that deep truth that lives within me that I’ve decided to hide, to keep from being seen, because it wasn’t safe.

The truth hides behind what is implied but isn’t said in the dominant culture that is exterminating life on planet Earth at the fastest rate possible.

Then it lands. The truth that I’m hiding is:

—I am a patriarchal man. I am the patriarchy.

My Hidden Commitment

At a very young age, shortly after being born, I decided to serve the patriarchy so that I could survive.

I play the role of being a good man, a good father, a good husband, a planetary guardian, a man doing the work, a healer, a lover of Earth.

Yet, deep within, I carry a deep-rooted, hidden commitment to serve and protect the patriarchy.

I’m writing from the closet because I’m still hiding. I can barely get a glimpse of this man before he runs back behind the doors, where it’s safe.

Well, not anymore. The truth is out. I’m done hiding and protecting it.

Crossing the line to the other side for my survival strategy means: suicide, death, being cast away from the majority, and pointed out from the crowd.

And, at the same time, everything real and alive I’ve experienced has been beyond that line.

Not Choosing Is Also A Choice

As soon as I stop feeling the pain of the war, the devastation, the back-stabbing, the betrayal, the sneakiness, the fakeness, the insane rat race for money and power, and I take things for granted, that’s when I start hiding.

From this place, I confess that there’s a war going on inside me.

I’m done with it. I’m done with keeping it all inside as if it’s a secret that nobody can see. I’m done protecting it by keeping it a secret.

It’s this hidden commitment and not making a new choice that keeps the war happening, an orientation that perpetuates war through generations, passed down from my parents to me, and from me to my children.

The Propellers of a Dignified Angry Woman

I write because I’m hitting one more time the propellers of a dignified conscious asshole woman, obliterating my old, war-oriented patriarchal structures into a million pieces.

She’s not bending to my patriarchy-protecting agenda of hiding and lying because she’s clear of the invitation I’m making to live in survival, consciously or unconsciously, and the consequences it creates.

I write this because I’m devastated. There’s so much gold, so much hidden shit that I’m not talking about. And what I’m doing is avoiding and pretending I’m ok. Pretending to be a good boy, to have my shit together, to be a saint, or a guru, to not feel a thing about how my life is going, to be peaceful.

I’ve been trying to see how all this shit fits together. It doesn’t fit together. One cannot serve the patriarchy and serve life at the same time.

You cannot have two different orientations.

Or, more accurately, having two orientations creates the consequence that your boat is going to one place, and then it goes to another…

Or, the boat is trying to take off, but the anchors are down, and it cannot take off…

Everyone gets two choices (at least)

Survive. Keep hiding, playing small, playing safe, business as usual, unconscious fear driving the space and every decision. Take the blue pill. You haven’t read anything. Get knocked out. Fall asleep. You haven’t felt anything. Play confused, offended, misunderstood, incapable, victim. Avoid responsibility. “Feelings” as a thing to avoid.

Or, play full-out. Be at choice. Feel your feelings. Possibilities are endless. Feeling as a resource for creating. Clarity. Connection. Creating. Healing. Evolving. Choice. Emotional Sobriety. Conscious Feelings. Paint a doorway to a space where there’s space for something new and jump right in.

There are many ways that the patriarchy hides, including:

• Looking smart

• Knowing things and being right about what you know

• Prioritizing being right over being in relationship

• Not feeling, numbing, distracting

• Saying the right thing

• Being politically correct, civil, and properly educated

• Avoiding engaging with conflict

• Hiding, ghosting, disappearing

• Making stories that disempower you and others

• Playing victim, which includes persecuting and rescuing

• Being right

• Obeying the rules of law because an external authority said so (like killing other human beings because it was an order from a superior)

• Blaming someone with more authority

• Hiding in hierarchies and classes

• Remaining silent, small, out of the picture, not using your voice

• Gossipping, resenting, and making unchecked assumptions

• Not feeling, oh, I already said that

I don’t have the right answers. This is the kind of bullshit that makes the shit that is stinking up visible, smellable and tastable.

On the other hand, shit is a great fertilizer for helping new things grow.

Missing Skills Being In The Unknown

I do not know how to relate with my partner without making invitations to survive, to play small, to be normal, classic Pleasantville. She’s not feeding this part of me anymore. This part of me is starved and dying, perhaps making its last attempt to get attention.

—Hello, honey. Good morning. How did you sleep? What’s for dinner? Good? Ok. I love you. Goodbye.

My partner is saying NO. This reveals that for twenty years, I’ve been inviting her to play small, using her energy for my survival, using her radiance to feed my insecurities, and using her to mother me.

It’s not one-sided, of course. She has also been using me.

But, if it wasn’t for her and other powerful women and men feeling their pain and putting their foot down, I think I would have been ok living the rest of my life as a covert patriarchal man, hiding in public as a good boy, doing the work, being a holy handsome tribal shaman man.

I feel mad because my orientation is geared towards lying to myself and lying to others, manipulating, controlling, omitting, and hiding. And I’m tired of that. I gaslighted myself to have this orientation.

I’m tired of not getting anywhere. Starting to go and then stopping myself.

I’m tired of taking off and stopping myself because of my commitment to play safe and my fear that something would go wrong.

Sailing is dangerous. You could get lost and drawn.

Relating is dangerous. It changes you, and change doesn’t guarantee safety.

Life is dangerous. You could get hurt and die.

I’m dangerous. You’re dangerous. Especially if you’re a man. But women are also dangerous—even more so than men.

So, What Do You Want?

I want to live. I want to move in the world. I want to create. I want to play.

What I’ve tried so far has gotten me where I am now.

Perhaps you’ve tried these things too:

I’ve tried to be a good boy by saying that my intentions are good, but creating hellish results, flagellating (beating) myself up for doing it wrong, for being a patriarchal man, for not having the right answer, for failing, then resenting my mother (and subsequently my partner) for not being or giving me what I expected them to.

I’ve tried hiding, justifying and defending myself because I have good intentions. Not really allowing the devastating reality that my actions are creating pain and harm to others, more so to those whom I loved the most.

What am I trying next?

There’s no trying. Only doing.

I’m mad, I’m messy, I’m angry because I want something for myself, for my life, for my family and for this world. I’m angry to create it. I’m angry for staying clear. I’m angry because a life of lying is a half-life, and I want a full life.

I’m getting raw, going wild, I’m feeling, I’m speaking, and I’m becoming more visible in how I am. I am taking a stand for nature immersion for our children and families around me. I’m sourcing the resources I want to create a life of abundance. I am doing more and more of what I want.

I leave you with this quote:

“Hell is full of people with good intentions” — Popular Chinese proverb

My friend and colleague Devin Gleeson said it this way:

“Good Boys Don’t Go To Heaven. They Source Hell.”

(Watch Devin’s worktalk with the same title here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1NDt-SPIa3I)

That’s sharp clarity that you can use for transformation, or not. You may also use it to continue the known path you’re already familiar with.

Are you intending to source love but actually sourcing hell for yourself and others?

Are you compromising your values and what you really want and creating resentment for the people you love?

Are you staying quiet and silent contributing to the perpetuation of an unfulfilled life, war and the patriarchy?

How can you make your life about becoming integral with your word and doing what you said you would do?

Resources

I haven’t been doing this journey alone. Beside me I’ve had an online village and a gameworld that has encouraged me to create the possibility to feel, to get real, to hold my vision and to share it with others.

What is Archiarchy? The most loving culture that I can imagine and that has been the catalyst for continuing to love more radically life, myself and others.

Patriarchy — https://patriarchy.mystrikingly.com/

3-3-3 Initiation — https://3-3-3.mystrikingly.com/

Join the Possibility Creation Village Telegram Group — https://t.me/+ViEuN7pEHlcSDlCv

Hit Bottom — https://hitbottom.mystrikingly.com/

Work with me — https://www.jorgepedret.xyz/work-with-me

Although I was up there making good money, had “good” friends, and was relatively comfortable, I could hear in all my bodies the call from the Earth.

—Come home.

But I could not come home. Not for long, at least.

I went camping, but only for a short time before I had to go back to my “normal” life.

I was high up on the ladder of technology, but I was missing foundational technology.

My body was aching to embody more fully in this life, to touch the ground.

Now, I call this: Ground Zero.

What happens when you’re missing the bottom steps of the ladder?

The essential technology that connects you to the ground is missing.

I.e.: Fire making, making a shelter, relating with other humans, planting trees, fishing, cooking.

You are in life, but only part of you is here.

This creates a major pain at the soul level. Your soul starts screaming for attention. This is the awakening. This is the shaking of foundations. This is a beginning and a call to embody more your human experience, rooted HERE and NOW.

A lot of the time, dominant modern culture would say —You’re just having a “mid-life crisis”. — Dismissing (by design) the importance and potency of this precious time of your development.

This calling is the force that moves a human being from childhood to adolescence, to adulthood, and, I think, to elderhood and to death.

If you’re around your 30s or 40s, this will be particularly speaking to you.

Your soul is calling for you to pay attention, to grow up, to skill-up, to let go of the old to more fully inhabit all your bodies with what is most important to you.

• How do you do that in a society where authentic adulthood is rarely modelled?

• How do you become a free and natural adult man or woman in a world that is privatizing and prohibiting access to the land, to making fires, to roaming, to wandering, to living of the earth?

• How do you find your people and create community in a place that creates regulations that strangle the possibility of humans living and thriving together beyond survival?

• How do you source the resources you need to live in a world that seems to demand more and more of you?

If these questions turn you on, and you feel something about them, then you might have seeds of regenerative human culture, and the pain you need to invent the next thing.

Gaining the skills you’ve been missing, the essential skills at the bottom, might take a few years. It took me about 10 years. And there’s more, there’s more depth, and practice that I want about it, but my being now doesn’t feel crippled. I could go anywhere, be anywhere, and I trust that I can take care of myself. I can just be.

What are you longing for?
What are you pissed off about?

The answer to these questions is not in your head but in your heart, and they hint to what you care most about.

Would you let yourself feel? Speak? Write?

Love,
Jorge

P.S.: Learning how to feel?
I condensed in 2 hours, the 4 years of training I’ve done in the Conscious Feelings world.
You can get it here: https://jorgepedret.gumroad.com/l/sourcing-your-feelings

Sourcing Your Feelings

In this 2-hour video you’ll get the doorways, not just to information, but to clear, concise experiments you can try to start your own discovery of your feelings, AND a massive global community of feelers, experimenters, pirates, healers, cultural creatives who are at the edge, not adapting, not playing stupid games, and reclaiming their power to create here and now the life they want.

There’s a lot of free and great information and practices out there. But, I’ve only seen the practice of conscious feelings in one place: The Possibility Management world.

You might have heard the words…

You might have heard the stories…

You have read the stories in a book…

But up until you go through one, all the way, you have no idea that it was possible.

Nothing could be compared to it.

The Map is Not the Territory

You can make an analogy, such as going to Costa Rica.

I’ve never been to Costa Rica.

I’ve seen the map. I’ve seen the pictures. I’ve even seen videos. I’ve talked to people from Costa Rica. I’ve listened to music from Costa Rica. I’ve read of their traditions and stories.

But I’ve never been to Costa Rica.

Until you go to Costa Rica, everything you know about Costa Rica, is theoretical, it lives in your mind, in concepts, in ideas.

You have not experienced Costa Rica in all your 5 bodies.

If you think that you know Costa Rica because you’ve read about it, then you are living in a fantasy world.

The reality is that up until you go to Costa Rica, or go through Costa Rica, you don’t know Costa Rica.

Damn, now I really want to know Costa Rica.

Up until you go through an initiation, you don’t know what’s on the other side.

This is the landmark of an initiation.

Throughout your life, you have gone through different initiations, which have led you to grow down and up and take more responsibility.

You don’t know what it’s like to be a parent, until you become one.

There is no way of knowing.

No matter how many books you read, how many videos you watch, how many parents you spend your time with, or how much you convince yourself.

Up until you become a parent, you don’t know what it’s like to be a parent.

The "Unknown Unknowns"

What am I trying to say?

I’m trying to say that there are 2 things:

1. What you don’t know

2. What you don’t know that you don’t know

Is there a third thing?

Yes, and a fourth, and a fifth, and a sixth, and so on.

Which one do you think is bigger?

—What you don’t know? Or, what you don’t know that you don’t know?

I’m not speaking in circles here.

What I’m pointing to is that most of us have been trained since childhood to avoid looking into the great unknown, or even having the sensitivity that there is an unknown.

Rather, we are trained to put a band-aid on any crack that questions the reality where we live.

Death, for example.

Many people, beliefs and religions have all sorts of band-aids for death.

These band-aids prevent the individual from having their own experience, and instead, they borrow someone else’s experience, someone else’s words, beliefs, ideas, and concepts, and that satisfies their curiosity.

They stop wondering.

They stop asking questions.

They stop digging in, exploring, discovering, refining.

They conform to the common consensus.

Who benefits from this?

Power-seeking organizations and individuals who benefit from exploiting disempowered, obedient, subdued human beings.

A World Without Initiated Adults

The result is a factory of human beings who do not have their authority. Whom their authority lives outside of them for somebody else to use.

How is this connected with authentic adulthood initiatory processes?

It is connected because we live in a world with a dominant culture (or anti-culture as I’ve heard Ian MacKenzie call it), ALL authentic initiatory processes have been ripped out of the fabric of creating adult human beings.

And most people don’t know because they’ve never gone to Costa Rica.

They’ve never gone through an initiation.

They’ve stayed comfortable, in their homes, in their jobs, in the busyness of their lives, in the drama of their relationships, in the watching of movies, the drinking of alcohol, the smoking of substances, and the many other ways to escape reality.

What reality?

That we live in a responsible world.

Every action has a reaction.

You throw a pebble in the water, and it creates ripples.

Right now, corporations are creating enormous messes without any intention of cleaning them up.

Environmental messes.

Societal messes.

Political messes.

The Earth has boundaries.

When these boundaries are crossed, the whole system comes out of balance and collapses, making this place no longer inhabitable for human beings.

Many of these planetary boundaries are already being breached.

Meanwhile…

…Some people continue to operate as business as usual.

…Others are taking full advantage of the collapse and desperation to further exploit other human beings and natural resources for their survival and personal profit.

…A few others are protesting, going to the street, using their voices to expose the real purpose of the system.

…A few others are going through initiatory adulthood processes to become the agents who can take the level of responsibility needed to be taken to fully face this cultural and environmental crisis creatively and not out of reactivity or survival which would just repeat the past.

The Seeds Of Life You Carry

Who knew that adulthood could be this much fun?

Nobody prepared you for this.

Now, as an adult, you get to choose the game you play and how you play it.

They might have tried to extinguish your flame, to kill the seed of life that you carry, but it is still there, alive, and well.

You’ve done well surviving. You made it. It worked.

Whatever you did, it worked. You are here.

Now, you are an adult, but your internal system is stuck at a time back when you stopped feeling because it was too dangerous, back when you made a decision to play safe rather than to play full out, back when you chose to survive instead of choosing yourself.

You are not wrong for surviving. You are not wrong for using survival strategies, to hide, to avoid, to repress your feelings, to deny your authentic being, to numb. You are not wrong. You are not evil. You are not broken. You are not a coward. You are not a traitor. You are not weak.

I think that you were protecting something precious, an enormous gift that you came here to share and create in this world.

Is it time now?

Is it time to remember?

Are you ready to remember what you came here for?

In Love,
Jorge & Gaia

X: You Are Here

Your survival strategies did their job: They got you here.

But to face the planetary and cultural shifts now, you need an internal system that can do more than “hide and avoid.”

You need the capacity to feel, to relate, and to create from a place of radical responsibility.

In the Fall of 2026, we’re bringing an Expand The Box to Canada.

Expand The Box is a 4-5 day residential training, or a month-long online training, where you go through a series of initiations into adulthood.

• Gaining revolutionary relating skills that create intimacy

• Learning how to consciously feel mad, sad, glad and scared

• Distinguishing between your box, your gremlin and your being

• Going through initiatory processes that create new possibilities in your life

• Geting tools to create the village, family, or project of your wildest dreams

Fill out this form and let us know that you’re interested: https://forms.gle/pNTJXPHxPvYrFQU5A

Get on the list for ETB Canada 2026

Resources for Deepening

Authentic Adulthood Initiations
https://adulthood.mystrikingly.com/

Transform your feelings from a burden to a resource
https://jorgepedret.gumroad.com/l/sourcing-your-feelings

Allow yourself to finally feel anger consciously for no reason
https://3-3-3.mystrikingly.com/

Join the next Rage Club
https://rageclub.org/

Join the next Expand The Box Training
https://possibilitymanagement.org/etb

I wrote this words. I didn’t invent the Jabberwock. The Jabberwock is a nonsense poem published in 1871 by Lewis Carrol, the writer who wrote Alice in Wonderland.

This article is an invitation to incarnate more fully into your spiritual and human experience, to grow and evolve your consciousness, and get your X on the map about where you are in the evolutionary process.

To write this article, we (the reader and the writer) need to go on a journey to slay the Jabberwock.

— Ready for this adventure?

There’s a giant beast, a nonsensical creature that’s been devouring the world, the colors, the animals, the plants, the music, and the life force of all living things on planet Earth.

This is the Jabberwock.

It’s nonsense. It eats everything up with all its nonsense.

While you try to figure out the meaning of all the nonsense, it leaves you looking for an answer somewhere that’s not here and now—somewhere, sometime in the future, or perhaps the answer is somewhere in the past, somewhere in your mother or your father shouting at you.

Trying to figure it all out, you end up: Confused. Confounded. Bamboozled. Deceived. Mislead. Tricked. Wrapped up in yourself, bundled up like a shawarma.

Only a miracle could get you out of this.

The good news is that we’re in the land of miracles.

Unlikely, impossibly unimaginable things can happen, and DO happen, and you make them happen. Not with brute effort, but with a kind of grace that cannot be forced and that is given.

Still, a miracle is a miracle, and it doesn’t happen without your willingness and the willingness of divine forces.

So, preparing for the miracle, you build the momentum, you start your fire.

—There’s no future here in this confined space, other than being food for this nonsense creature. A life of being digested slowly and painfully in this prison for the rest of your life.

You wait for the right time, you blow on your little coal, and it bursts into a flame.

The great escape begins!

You fight for your life.

You fight for Life itself.

Once again, you become a guardian, you light on fire!

With courage, you move through great obstacles and bring down walls that have been there for as long as you can remember.

—This is my life!

I did not agree that i would come to this world to be devoured by another kind of consciousness.

I refuse to live a life just to be food for this nonsensical creature to eat and poop me.

You peck away at the outer layer, not in war, but in motion to liberate yourself from the layers and layers of nonsense imposed by you and by others, the layers that slowly choke you to death, that suffocate you.

You are Life, and Life is you.

…But you’re not a chicken, or a snake, born in an egg that they need to peck…
…you are human, you are born through your mother’s vagina…

More and more layers of nonsense.

Nonsense because all that matters right now is air, air to breathe, breath, life, movement, this is your life, your body, your freedom.

You don’t exist by yourself in isolation.

You are part of a greater organism.

And right now, this is your birth, your coming into the world, into a new world, and your birthing is not done yet.

You kick, you punch, you wait, you slay, you try to scream, you try to get a gulpof air, but air is not there yet, so you kick, you punch, you jump, you sway.

Strategically, your body knows the way.

You’ve done this before, in one way or another; it’s not a repetition of the past, but it’s the knowing that makes life Life.

You can sense that something is choking you to death, with tentacles, layers upon layers of suffocation, repression, denial, numbness, and more nonsense.

Like a lobster being caught and put in a pot with cold water slowly being boiled, this is your doom.

Life is life; There’s nothing right or wrong about eating and being eaten; It’s life’s way.

There’s no use in complaining or making stories about how poor you are for being eaten or how wrong that beast is for eating you.

This is real. That you’re being eaten is real. The feelings are real. The experience of suffocation, repression and nonsense is real.

All your kicking, your fire and your point sword that won’t give up, give an indigestion to the beast; The beast growls and squirms.

You move towards freedom, you dream of space to move freely, a body to run, jump and play with, a heart that radiates LOVE and is not damped by nonsense.

You fight through all the nonsense, the stuff that tries to suck you out of your life force, what tries to convince you, what tries to control you, every little piece of obstacle that gets in your way from being alive right here and right now.

You hear a beast speaking:

…You belong here with us.
It’s useless to fight.
We belong together.
Stop fighting, it’s useless.
Your fighting is causing more war.
You need to surrender.
This is life, you eat, and you’re eaten, just accept it.
It’s too late.
You’re too old.
You’re too tired.
You’re too small.
You’re to slow.
You’re too fat.
You’re too weak.
You’re too broken down now…

—That’s it! All the fucking nonsense that I’ve been wrapped up in.
And I’ve internalized it:

…I will figure it out one day.
I’m to small, stupid, young, unprepared to understand all of life.
Im not ready yet.
I need my mommy.
I don’t have what it takes.
You, they, us, we, I, me, who?.
Who am i?
Where am i?
How do I get out of here?
Why doesn’t this make sense to my body?
Why are people suffering and passing down their suffering and are entitled about it and behave as if this is the most normal thing?…

— NOOOOO!
FUCK YOU!
I WILL NOT, I DO NOT ACCEPT THIS AS MY NORMAL.
I do not accept this as the end.
This isn’t the end.

…Life never ends, just accept that you’re going through some psychological inflatuence monocyclical ergonomically divinely designed for your consumption.

Blah, blah, blah, blah.

You need to be nice!

You should be more respectful. More humble. More smart. More careful.

Be careful, life is dangerous, you could just stay here and be safe being nothing, being digested, consuming and being consumed, it’s easy…

—Fuck you! Fuck this nonsense.
I do not accept that this is the end of my life.

With one last swing of your sword, with all your life force, you see a blurred point of light, another swing, and light pours through a crack in the belly of the beast, the air touches your skin.

Deep breathe.
Your first breath of air.
Deep breathe.
Your chest moves up and down with your breath.
The beast is slain. It lies dead beside you.
The colours.
The smells.
The wind.

…You are a violent creature.
You slain me, another living creature.
You killer, you murderer…

You hear the echoes of the dying beast.

But you lay there… ALIVE, BREATHING, FEELING, SEEING.

All these years you’ve been in that prison.

If it wasn’t for that thing you read, or that thing you watch, or that thing that that guy told you that day, you might still be there, thinking that that’s life, being digested, trapped, suffocated, suffering every second.

The echoes of the beast might never go away.

But the nonsense…
That’s up to you now if you want to keep feeling or not.

Do you become a voice for the echoes of nonsense?
Or do you breathe and feel and be with what is as it is?

Now, from here, something else is possible.

The old story doesn’t stand anymore.

You see more people coming out of the belly of the beast that you slew.

These are your people.

They saw your act, and the light and the air and they also came out.

The colors, the animals, the mountains, the plants, they are all back, unharmed, and new.

The creation doesn’t end here.

Now you’re feeling, you’re alive, you’re out.

Lots of weird shit happened. Lots of confusion, delusion, illusion, fight, gaslighting, war, division, projections, resentments.

That’s the old stuff now, the old game.

No need to play that game anymore.

Other games are possible now.

There are other beside you.

Can you see them?

You’re not alone in the darkness.

You have a body, a voice, a heart, a mind, and a direct, inheritable, inalienable connection with the forces that made this miracle happen for us.

For now, it’s time to let it all land, rest, recharge, drink water, walk around, see the colors, smell the smells, feel the air on your skin.

This was part 1.

Part 2 is coming soon.

You may continue the journey here: https://slaythejabberwock.mystrikingly.com/

I’m becoming a volcano.

For years, I’ve been in conflict with myself. The part of me that loves dirt and water and wandering and eating strange mushrooms and talking to plants... was at war with the part of me that loves technology, programming, the beauty of code, the architecture of the internet.

I couldn’t be both. So I chose one and buried the other.

I’m done with that.

I’m integrating. I’m bringing the hacker back. The part of me that wanted to crack systems open, see how they work, rebuild them better.

But, not just code —Thoughtware.

I’m becoming an Ethical Thoughtware Hacker.

Finding vulnerabilities in how we think, how we relate, how we build. Offering upgrades that have helped me and that might help others reach their integrity and sovereignty in their being and their creations.

This is showing up practically right now in a few ways:

1) I’m taking a pause from working at the farm. Which is perfect timing, because I’m launching something I’ve been building toward: xpweb.site—express websites for $500. Tiny homes for the internet. Simple, beautiful, fully functional. Websites are foundations of the digital world. I’m building 5 this week.

2) I’ve been developing a web platform for a gameworld called School of Conscious Communication—dedicated to researching and offering tools that support communication between human groups, leading to more collaboration, synergy, understanding, clarity, intimacy, and love-happening.

The originator, Elijah Ignatieff, was a trailblazer, cultural creative, gameworld builder, a close friend and colleague. He passed away in 2023. He left parts of his gameworld with me and many others in his circle to create what’s called a “Shared Knowledge Community.”

I’ve been collaborating with Claude AI, and a few other contributors to build these tools—a Time Translator map and a card catalog system.

If you want to stay up to date with this gameworld’s development, subscribe here:

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3. I’ve created a Telegram channel called “Make Your Website Team”—a tech support space where anyone can pitch in, ask questions, and get what you need to make your website. No matter your level of expertise. We’ll be focused on building, updating, and launching websites together, inspired by the experiments at Make Your Website in the StartOver.xyz gameworld.

Join here: https://t.me/+J4Fqa2WMm_MxY2Ex and introduce yourself and share what you want support with or how you want to participate.

Join Telegram Channel

4. I’m going to visit my parents in Ontario in February. A trip I’m creating with my partner and family. It requires sourcing more money than what my box is familiar with and a new level of stepping into what I’m capable of creating. If you’re in Ontario, or relatively close by, I’d love to meet.

5. I’m doing an Online Expand The Box in January—a month-long training that’s an initiation into a new level of adulthood. If you’re a parent, if you want to live in community, if you’re a healer wanting to level up your skills—I want you in this with me.

Online ETB Details & Registration

6. I’m running Men’s Circle: Earth’s Heart every two weeks in Sooke, BC. with the purpose of nourishing our hearts and souls with music, being together, getting to our edge, fire, feet on the earth and speaking from the heart.

Men's Circle Event Details

7. I’m co-creating a 1-year next culture community living project on Vancouver Island for Spring 2026. Multi-family, multi-generational, regenerative, alive, juicy. If this is interesting to you and have questions about it, I’d love to hear from you.

8. I continue cleaning up my relating spaces—mending harm I’ve caused, reclaiming parts of myself I haven’t forgiven, taking my energy back.

I just finished the first 4 weeks of calls with a team of 5 who are also on a journey to clean up their relating spaces. I celebrate our commitment to this path of healing and incarnating more and more in this human experience, here and now.

9. And, The Re-villaging worktalk is happening tomorrow—I’m doing a worktalk with a colleague and village weaver Svetlana Kostel, tomorrow Tuesday, December 16th, from 11am-12:30pm PST.

We’ll be having an intimate talk about our experiences in community, what has worked and what hasn’t, and how is possible to create the clarity needed to live, work and play together.

If you feel called to join, let me know, or fill out the form here:

Join the Re-Villaging Worktalk

If any of this lands with you—if you need a website, if you want to do ETB with me, if you know someone who needs what I’m building—I’m here.

Let’s build the world we want to live in, from the ground down and up.

Love,
Jorge Pedret

P.S. — xpweb.site. I have 5 spots this week. Your home on the internet. Let’s build it together.

P.S.2 — There’s still spots available in the Rage Club: Adapt to Nothing, Withhold Nothing starting again in December 30th. If you’re done and done adapting to others, loosing your clarity, performing and pleasing others, being nice, being a good boy or girl, saying “yes” when you want to say “no”, not making boundaries, this might be the next step for you.

What a better way to start the new year?

Check out the details and registration here: http://forms.gle/QQJyXpbq5fmTaj49A

Do you have access to possibility? to clarity? to transformation?

The biggest transformation you can cause “over there” is the transformation you cause “over here”, starting with you.

It starts with you. If your pathways are clear and you can say what you want, and be free, then you open up that pathway for others to be or do the same.

I breathe and as I breathe out I clear the pathway before me.

I let the weight of my shoulders fall off, put the load down.

I take a moment to feel what it’s like to walk light, without the heavy load I’ve been used to carry on my shoulders.

It is time.

I have 2 Radical Invitations for you:

1) Expand The Box Online

This is a thrilling, life-changing, perspective-shifting, initiatory space powered by Possibility Management, designed to expand one’s awareness and get the skills you need to inner navigate your feelings and create the intimacy and collaborations you really want.

The deadline for registration is December 13th, so you need to make a decision soon if you want to join.

This training delivered by the amazing Vera Franco will go for 1 month. From January 10 to February 10, 2026.

Here is the link to the details and registration form: https://forms.gle/s4Qn4MRxFSChtnAS9

2) Rage Club: Adapt to Nothing Withhold Nothing

There’s so much territory to cover when it comes to the potential of how we (most human beings on planet earth) are currently using our anger to source clarity, commitment, and taking action.

This Rage Club is intended for shifting from the adaptive strategy of withholding your feelings and adapting to others to please them, to conform, to be nice, to maintain a fake peace, to avoid conflicts… and basically, to survive one more day.

Does it turn you on to be in a team of 20+ people, discovering experientially how to use your anger consciously to source clarity, take a stand, say what you want, become more alive, and finally live your life?

If it does, I highly recommend you join this space.

Training is online and starts on December 31st, although you might be able to join sooner.

I can’t think of a more radical, empowering and unique way to start the new year.

—What are you doing for the new year? I’m joining Rage Club.

Here’s the link to the details and registration form: forms.gle/QQJyXpbq5fmTaj49A

Both of these spaces are high-level fun and doorways to a larger community of healers, cultural creatives, Gameworld builders, mages, and earth guardians, using tools, processes, maps, distinctions from Possibility Management to source regenerative cultures thriving on planet Earth.

With Love,
Jorge Pedret

P.S.: If you’ve been thinking about building your website and you’re looking for possibilities, you might want this.

I’ve built websites for over 15 years, from the ground down and up, backend to frontend.

I’m offering to build you a simple, effective and beautiful website, from conception to published, in 2 days, all inclusive, for CAD$500.

Let me know if this is something you’re interested in, and let’s start the conversation.

Not everyone is ready to take responsibility for how they are using and relating to their feelings.

Most people choose to live in a fantasy world where they are victims of something or somebody else.

Victims of their partners, their parents, their perpetrator, the system, the government, victims of money, of themselves, of demons, shadows, victims of life, god, the devil, of stupid people, of evil, of war, etc.

This is modern society’s orientation, and people who subscribe to this orientation get pissed off and offended when they hear that it’s not possible to be a victim.

These emotions originate from the same orientation of modern society.

What most people don’t know is that there are other orientations that create completely different worlds.

Rage Club operates in a completely different orientation than modern culture:

Radical Responsibility.

This means that in Rage Club you take responsibility for the level of responsibility being taken.

In Rage Club there’s no teacher, no guru, no right or wrong way, no agreeing/disagreeing, just you and your edge, your research, your necessity, your pain.

If you’re ready to stop pretending that everything is ok (numbing), step into higher levels of responsibility and own how you relate with your feelings, Rage Club is exactly for this.

Intro to Rage Club Online Nov. 29th

Melissa Denuzzo and Jacqueline Ives are holding an Introduction to Rage Club available online, next week, Saturday, Nov. 29th.

Details and registration here: https://forms.gle/hCFifU9FygVcRyfo6

Rage Club: Adapt to Nothing. Withhold Nothing

On December 3rd, a new cycle starts of a Rage Club created to practicing adapting to nothing and withholding nothing.

I will be there, in this Rage Club, held by Beth McNamara and Jacqueline Oneill for the next 2 months.

Details and registration here: https://forms.gle/QQJyXpbq5fmTaj49A

Why Won’t I Stop Talking About Anger?

Because I love it.

Because it has created more space inside of me to inhabit my body, to move, to incarnate, to speak my truth, to get clear, and I want this possibility for others.

Anger is not what most people think.

The Anger work I invite you to is to learn with all your bodies (not just your mind) how to distinguish violence, aggression, reactivity, feelings & emotions, so that you can be empowered in your relationship with Anger, rather than being a victim of it.

Here’s a video I made this week about the path to inhabiting your body more and opening your heart’s eye.

I feel scared because I’m incompetent at showing up fully as I am, and I’ve learned to derive my self-worth from my level of competence.

I want to cross this threshold that is holding me back from BEING and experience flow, accepting all parts of myself.

I’m changing my mind about my worth being derived from my level of competence. My self-worth is my life, this precious time I have here on Earth, and all my relations.

So much is coming up from my underworld.

Inner resistance.

Parts of me that are committed to nothing ever changing,
to sticking with what I’m familiar,
to using the strategies I already know.

Self-pity, confusion, an ocean of sadness, grief, paralizing fear, landing in the swamp, getting out of the swamp, overwhelm, disdain, apathy.

Make a mess -> Pity myself for the mess -> Beat myself up for making a mess -> Numb out the pain of having a mess -> Pretend like I don’t have a mess -> Collapse from exhaustion -> Clean a bit of the mess -> Make another mess... And the cycle repeats.

It’s going to get messier before it gets cleaned up.

The shift of orientation is:
This mess is the problem I want.

I’m using my Anger to clean my mess.

Anger is not what most people think it is.

Anger is an absolutely neutral force of life that everyone is born with.

Anger is a force to become clear, to say enough is enough, to draw a boundary, to choose and commit to something, to say YES and NO.

If you want to learn more about how to reconstruct your relationship with Anger into an empowering one, Rage Club is the space where you get to do exactly this.

So many Rage Clubs are happening right now.

Check them out here: https://rageclub.org/en/events?format=&language%5B%5D=EN

The Rage Club “Adapt to Nothing. Withhold nothing” starts a new cycle on December 3rd.

I will be there.

Will you join me?

With Love & Anger,
Jorge Pedret

I just started learning a dance move called SpongeBob Shuffle.

It’s hard. I’m incompetent. I can’t follow the steps. My muscles don’t know it. My brain crashes when I try. It’s a whole learning curve.

The way to get through this learning curve faster and create a new groove in all my bodies is:

Repeat the steps over and over, slowly and for as long as I need to, increasing the speed little by little while keeping the form.

That’s it. You’re creating a new groove. You can’t expect to run before you can hold your neck up.

Anything you want to learn takes time and conscious effort in all your bodies.

It doesn’t just happen by magic that I’ll learn the SpongeBob shuffle, it doesn’t just happen because now I “understand” the moves.

Why am I saying this?

Because, if you’re reading this, you are probably an edgeworker, a trailblazer, a creative-type, and you are creating things that have never been created before.

You are creating new grooves, and it’s not just for you; it’s for all the other people around you who are watching you, the people behind you following your journey now and the future generations.

As you go on your journey,
Go slow…
Don’t give up on the first try…

If you had given up walking after the 50th time you fell, you wouldn’t be walking today.

Each of these new learning curves you master shapes a new future for you and for others around you.

Once you learn this new groove, you have a new groove. You can use it at a party, or you can be walking down the street and break into a SpongeBob shuffle for no reason without breaking a sweat.

Missing Grooves

What are the grooves you’re missing to be where you want to be?

I’m missing grooves about how to sustainably and authentically relate with others when living together for more than a few weeks.

I easily adapt to others, I compromise my values and don’t take a stand for what I really want. Then I blame it on others because I “have to” compromise my values for them, and then I create resentment because they don’t fulfill the expectations I had of them.

In a few weeks of living with others, I’m a mess, I’m exhausted, I’m hiding and catching myself holding back. Relational spaces are a mess, and the possibility for true intimacy is zero, unless it is box, survival-based kind of intimacy.

I want a village. I want to village.

I want to learn how to be more authentic while I’m with others, and create the kind of intimacy I want and know is possible.

I want to stop giving my center away to others and walk in the world with dignity and my authority to write the book and create the Gaian Gameworlds that move through me.

This is why I’m joining the online Expand The Box in January.

I want my people to join this training with me, so that we can all get access to the immense possibilities that this space offers.

Are you ready to create a new groove and fly with other human beings?

Check out the details and registration form here: https://forms.gle/s4Qn4MRxFSChtnAS9

Until the next time.

Love,
Jorge

Relating doesn’t just refer to people, but also to material things, and even abstract things like ideas.

An untended mess is feedback that something is unhealed.

Behind every mess there’s an unhealed emotion.

Behind every mess there’s a treasure waiting to be discovered.

Emotions lodge in the body, becoming physical sensations that create pain and patterns that affect every aspect of your life.

Emotions are not something that you can simply wish away with mantras or affirmations.

Emotions don’t just go away because you “understand” where they come from.

No matter how many self-help books you read, how many Gabor Maté videos you watch, how many mantras you repeat, nothing changes until the emotion is completed.

Can you acknowledge that there’s an emotion? that it hurts? that you want to experience resolution? a completion of something?

There’s no shortcut to where you want to go; there’s no magic pill.

And there’s the heartbreaking truth that everything that you want is behind that emotion.

This is exactly what I’ll be doing over the next 3 months on the journey to clean my relating spaces.

This journey is for changing your shape from someone who is ongoingly creating messes in relationships without any intention of cleaning them up, to someone who is actively caring and cleaning up the messes that happen from authentically relating.

In this journey, we will be:

• Doing Emotional Healing Processes about your messes

• Dismantling resentments

• Taking your center back, reclaiming your voice, and your dignity

• Removing energetic blockages

• Cleaning up your relating spaces and re-rooting yourself in adulthood

Starting: Thursday, Nov 13th — 3:30-5:30pm Pacific Time
Cost: $0-$300 (donation-based)

If you hear the calling to join, check out the details here: https://forms.gle/PW6iCQrZ9saZ7JeR8.

Hope to see you there!

Love, Jorge

(Laurie is an extraordinary life and business coach whom I’ve had the pleasure of knowing for years now through a common friend. You may contact Laurie through her website here: https://laurierenton.com/)

I also divulged in the call that Nicole Hartley Bradford holds space for past life decisions, specifically around being burned at the stake for practicing magic, in case people didn’t know.

I feel sad that 100 more people weren’t there to really get in touch with the cost of having a mess in your relating spaces.

I want to clear my relating spaces so that I can hold space for hundreds of people to embark in this journey.

There’s so much gold that came out from this call.

Here’s what I discovered in the call:

Having messes is a sign that you’re living your life from your box (your personality, your ego).

All that mess around you is your own sense of self-importance and compensating for what you believe you are not.

You create messes around you to play safe and avoid the consequences of living a life with clarity, authenticity and purpose.

There are archetypal forces ready to collaborate with you as soon as your box gets out of the way.

There’s precious energy that gets wasted, used unconsciously, and that is a pity, because there are things that you want, that you’re yearning for, and you need that energy for creating them.

Increasing your capacity to feel your feelings is how you begin the journey of cleaning your relating spaces. Learning how to feel mad, glad, sad and scared, consciously, without mixing them.

Allowing yourself to feel your resentment towards something or someone (including yourself) guides you to where the mess is and how to clean it up.

The recording is coming up.

If you’re interested in cleaning up your relating spaces, and want to watch the recording, keep an eye on my substack (jorgepedret.substack.com) where I will be posting the recording.

The 3-month journey with a team starts next week.

12 weeks dedicated to cleaning up your relating spaces, whether it’s material, personal, or conceptual stuff, a mess is a mess, and it takes energy from you every day that you don’t take care of it.

Find the details and register here: https://forms.gle/8zQvNASyLaBWF1RAA

Old notes, papers, drawings, crafting material, things I saved for later but never used, garbage, receipts I can’t even read anymore, smoking stuff, lighters, ripped pants I wanted to fix and didn’t, old clothes I didn’t wear anymore, etc.

Making commitments and not following through, not doing what I say I would do,

Two weeks ago, I committed to a 3-month journey to focus on cleaning my relating spaces.

The first relating space I’m starting with is: my space.

Two weeks ago, I got a big chunk of stuff cleaned up from the closet.

And, there’s still more.

A friend died almost two years ago. I inherited some of his stuff, and some of it is still sitting around without purpose.

I’ve created messes with women, exchanging subtle sexual energy that leaves a backdoor open for playing unconscious games mostly about surviving and getting my needs met.

I feel sad because I’ve created a life where I’m used to living in a constant mess.

Creating messes for me has become my normal way of living and my way of surviving.

It’s easy to justify it as a parent by saying something like: —”Children are messy and there’s nothing I can do about it.”— Most parents would instantly agree with this. It doesn’t mean it’s true or real; it just means that most parents live in a mess.

I have messes so that I can easily justify failing at life.
—Why would you want to fail at life?
Well, the right answer is: —“I don’t want to fail at life”—. But, my shadow answer is: “Because failing is safer than winning”.

When I have messes, shit falls through the cracks, I can easily create overwhelm and blame my overwhelm for not doing stuff.

Having messes keeps me safe because I can easily put my attention on the mess, and instantly lose my clarity. Having my clarity is dangerous because it puts me at risk of being targeted by those affected by my clarity.

My bag is a mess, my closet is a mess, my desk (the small part of the desk I share with my partner) is a mess, and it’s stagnant.

Wherever I’m looking, I’m seeing a mess.

I think that I’m not alone in this pain, and my pain is a treasure worth sharing, because when I share it, the treasure multiplies.

I’m clearing my space from a life-long of accumulating stuff and creating relational messes with people.

I’m starting with my space.

It’s painful. It’s uncomfortable. It’s a mess.

Cleaning my space is the first step before I can move into creating something else in my life and with others.

If you recognize yourself in this pain, if you’re in a relational mess and you’re ready to clean your relating spaces, I’m creating a 3-month journey with a team dedicated to exactly this.

You may find more details here: https://forms.gle/jKAi5MCpd69uLAkf6

Love,
Jorge Pedret

I feel scared because I have a perfectionist strategy, where I process things in my head, tossing and turning in bed, feeling scared that it’s not good enough, and this blocks so much of my creation.

I feel scared because there are things I see in the world around me that scare me, and I feel scared that it’s me who is seeing them and that it’s me who needs to speak about them.

I feel scared of speaking out loud about the things that I see and being persecuted for speaking out.

I feel mostly anger about the things that I see, and I feel fear of my anger. I feel scared of being an (conscious) asshole, being clear, being sharp, taking a stand for something I care about.

And I’m not letting my fear stop me. My fear continues to inform me.

Yes, we live in a world where you could be killed, persecuted, hated, criticized, ostracized, imprisoned, and cast away for speaking up.

Yes, we live in a world where most human beings are unconscious dark sorcerers, casting dark spells, making stories, gossiping, planting and cultivating seeds of war for their unconscious, zombie-like drive for survival.

Yes, something happened in the past that I took a stand for something, and I was attacked and killed for the stand I took, and I need an emotional healing process for this wound of the past and change the decisions I made because of it.

Thank you, Fear.

A man’s Underworld has no end.

A man could keep going and going, diving into his Underworld, and this would consume all the resources, time, space, intimacy, and possibility.

If the man hasn’t been initiated into Adulthood and gained the experiential distinctions that allow him to emerge unharmed from his Underworld, he would stay stuck in his Underworld and have a mostly Underworld life, gravitating around mere survival.

To be clear, this is not a right or wrong statement, which could be easily interpreted as if there’s pressure to be good or proper.

I want to feel angry, because I don’t feel angry enough. I’m more comfortable feeling my fear, which puts me in my head to analyze and explain things, rather than being in connection with reality and what I want to create.

HEY! I want to create the possibility of aliveness in this part of the world. NO!! I want to create the possibility of aliveness in myself, the possibility that I can speak more fluently, more clearly and say the things without passing through 1000 filters and proppers and politeness and fucking rules that kill life.

I want the possibility of being alive, feeling, without having to explain myself, or justify my feelings. Heck, I have enough that I have to live with what I create.

Here’s the thing, I’m trying to create for something to happen over there, but I’m not considering that I need to create for something to happen over here.

Here in the fingers that are typing these words, here in the arms, the hands, the wrists, the heart, the mind, the soul that is typing these words.

Here on this screen, in this moment, here and now.

What do I want to create for me that ripples out into the world, also for others to be in this creation with me?

Ok, so then I’ve been demanding that others change before I change.

I’ve been demanding that others feel before I feel.

I’ve been demanding that others go before I go.

I’ve been unconsciously saying, “If you don’t go, I can’t go”.

Fuck it, this is me going. I’m going. I’m going first right here, right now. And if others want to come with me, then let it be, they are welcome to, I want them to.

I want the freedom of movement that comes when I’m not thinking about what others are going to think of me, when I’m not tied up energetically by the stories that others have of me, where my own value is not depending on what others say about me.

I want the freedom of movement to create from my being, in service to my principles.

And I’ve been doing something differently.

I’ve been doing things for others because something outside of me is telling me to.

I’ve been trying to provide value over there, as a covert way of getting value over here.

And it has been shooting sideways and not producing results.

I make a new decision, a new way of relating with myself and my creations:

I am freedom of movement, and I inspire others to be their own freedom of movement.

I want to share with you a video I recorded a few weeks ago when it was still warm and sunny over here. I was experimenting with using my feelings to create music and express my authentic being:

Until the next time!

P.S.: If you want possibilities about how to dive in and emerge from your Underworld and use your feelings for creation, I’m doing a worktalk series starting on October 30th called Into the Underworld.

“The only way is through.”

Details and registration here: https://forms.gle/UyLzUzDUrBHCgqS9A

Autostereograms are 2D images that, when seen in a certain way, reveal a 3D image with depth and edges not visible in the normal way we see.

The effect of seeing an autostereogram is a full-body experience, not merely a visual illusion of the eye.

The eyes need to go in a certain position and focus to “open the portal” to a hidden realm within the image.

Once it’s open, the image comes to life… with you…

Something unseen before becomes crystal clear.

The image, which seemed flat and dead before, comes to life with new depth, edges, textures, and details you couldn’t see before.

I experienced as if a window opened to another world, and that world had details that I couldn’t normally see in the ordinary way of looking at things.

I might be 40 years late to the autostereogram party, but they are amazing, this technology is amazing.

I first saw an autostereogram in high school when my friend Jonathan brought this magazine and showed us the images.

He was frustrated that I couldn’t see the image, but he also had a tinge of joy because he could see it and I couldn’t.

— Come on guys! You can’t see the dinosaur? You have to cross your eyes. Seeee, there is a pirate ship right there!!!

I was never able to see the 3D image in these fuzzy images.

It still takes me a great deal of shifting, crossing, focusing, falling back to normal vision, getting back, holding the gaze, twitching, seeing but not getting what I see, etc.

I thought (assumed) that people made up what they saw, and that it was partly a guessing game. I think it might be that for some people.

But now, I GET IT that there’s an eye technique that is SPECIFIC and brings an image to life.

I learned it almost by accident (but you know, there’s no accidents).

I visited the Wikipedia page of Autostereograms and went through the pictures: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Autostereogram#

This is the first one I was able to SEE:

Here comes the kicker, and why I’m telling you about this.

That you don’t see something doesn’t mean that it’s not there.

I had made wildly unchecked assumptions about autostereograms.

I didn’t care. It was such a small, insignificant thing. I could have gone the rest of my life without even questioning those assumptions, and I wouldn’t have even noticed.

It turns out that with a little bit of guidance, I was able to flip these assumptions upside down by getting the direct and full-body EXPERIENCE of seeing an autostereogram.

The theory or the mental concept that these images hold other images within didn’t do anything for me.

It was experiencing it firsthand that gained a new reference point I could move from.

There are assumptions we make that block us from being with the REALITY of things and, more painfully, from getting what we want.

What assumptions or stories are you making about yourself? about others? about your partner? about your children? about life? about your parents? about what you want?

Behind each of these questions, there’s a secret to unfold and a doorway to radically enter reality.

And the learning has no end.

P.S.: I’m doing an online worktalk series to dive Into the Underworld starting in October 30th.

Getting the full-body experience of your Underworld initiates you into a new way of seeing and being in the world.

If you’re interested, check out the details and registration here: https://forms.gle/ivJF9R62NdWcrZvd8

For the last 6 months, I’ve been in and out of the swamp, a part of my underworld.

The swamp is the place where you go when you have no possibilities, you’re stuck, you’re sinking, you’re muddy, wet, helpless, and there’s no one around to help.

Unless… You have a team of Archan villagers.

Then, you can call your team, and at least one of them will come and throw you a vine to get you out of your swamp, into a storyless and groundless world of possibilities.

6 months ago, I completed an expansive 6-week Gameworld Builder Training with Anne-Chloe Destremau and 20 other Gameworld Builders.

*Watch the recordings of the 6 sessions of 20+ Gameworld Builders landing life-chaning distinctions, asking real-life questions, practicing, going through liquid states and real transformation: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLV2nYmZkXJxC6ubIGvbGtJsn4JHE6IWdc&si=YQ_F51NELUMBOZFt

This team training helped me to finally collapse and demolish old strategies and structures I was still using to build my Gameworlds, and in other words to relate with people.

I discovered that I was building Gameworlds that revolved around me as the authority, me as the guru, the leader, the one in control who knows the way.

I was creating from a fantasy world where I was superior, isolated from what was really happening with the people around me, including my family.

This is how I came face to face with my Underworld and the heartbreaking reality of what I was really up to.

Into the Underworld

No matter what you’re creating, the Underworld is the first thing that will come up to challenge your creation.

Or rather your relationship to your Underworld.

When people start working together, one of the first things that comes up in between them is their Underworld.

• Gossiping about another member…

• Having unchecked broken expectations that turn into resentments…

• Envying another’s posessions or position…

• Being betrayed when something does go how one expected…

• Blaming the other for things that went wrong…

• Sneaking around when no one is looking…

Sounds familiar?

No matter what you’re trying to do, this shit is going to come up.

Now, come on, let’s get REAL!

Why is this not the thing that we’re talking about?

Why do this behaviours continue to be swept under the rug?

Why is the Underworld not in the center of the conversation of intentional communities and ecovillages?

Why is this not talked about in conscious relating?

Why didn’t we get taught about it in our education growing up?

All we were told growing up is that these behaviors are BAD, and if you do them or others do them towards you, you or them are BAD.

BAD = hide it, repress it, kill it.

So then, we end up with a world that is hiding their Underworld in the darkest places where it can’t be seen. With people really good at lying and hiding their Underworld in positions of power appearing to be all good and admonishing the bad ones.

This kind of dynamic creates the consequence that the Underworld takes over most of the available awareness, covertly, sideways, with no one to put their finger on what the fuck is going on.

Like an invisible enemy, people end up pointing fingers at each other, blaming, fighting for power, painting scarcity, and divided.

But the enemy is not the Underworld, but rather how we’ve been conditioned to relate with it and that authentic initiatory processes into adulthood have been vanished from most cultures on Earth for the last 4000 years.

Why are we not talking more about this? We need to talk about this.

We need this shit on the very front of our noses wherever we go.

We need to stop fooling ourselves like naive children that everyone is light and love, that god is all good, that good will conquer evil, that everything will be ok, that everything is ok, that god will take care of it all, that it’s all meaningless in the end, etc.

Fuck that!

How long have we been going with this lie in front of us? Pretending like we can’t see what is really going on? Turning our face the other way?
How long are you going to keep taking it? Betraying and sabotaging yourself? Blaming others for your feelings and incompetences? Your life being eaten up by unconscious underworld shit?

The only thing that changes is that time passes and you’re getting older.

If you want something else to be possible in your Gameworlds, in your relationships, in your projects, in your community, we need to consciously engage with our Underworld.

Put it on the table, put on landmarks, make a map, become an explorer, experiment, notice other people’s underworlds, invent new words to describe experiences, ask questions, talk about it.

Whether you are new to this “idea” of the Underworld, or you are an experienced Underworld navigator, this is a conversation that is absolutely essential for anything you’re creating.

Whatever part of your Underworld you’re not owning, it’s owning you.

This is true for you as an individual, as well as for you as a couple or you as a group of people.

~ Are you done making yourself available to be part of other people’s unconscious underworld agenda and spending your life merely surviving?

~ Do you want to live more fully?

~ Do you want to experience your full potential as a Free and Natural Adult Man or Woman?

~ Do you want to increase your capacity to be and hold space for yours and other’s Underworld?

As I’ve been writing this, I’ve been with my Underworld, hearing voices like:

• “Nobody gives a shit”

• “People are too busy for this”

• “Who are you to talk about the Underworld?”

• “This is just another one of your stupid creations”

• “Nobody is gona read this. Just give up. Chill out like everyone else.”

• “Nobody wants to hear the truth”

• “People are too comfortable with the bandaids they don’t want to go to the source”

• “You don’t have what it takes to bring people on an Underworld journey”

• “Relax. Don’t worry. Everything is gonna be ok”

It sounds so tempting to accept these voices as a final judgement and actually give up. It really is tempting.

If I accept what these very reasonable voices say, then, I won’t have to feel my pain, my fear about what if. What if it’s all bullshit? what if I still want it? what if it is my job? what if this is what I want? what if I fail? what if…

The question is: What do you want? What do you REALLY want?

Most people fall for the bluff of voices like this and don’t get to experience what is on the other side.

So, I’m going, and if you want this too, I have an invitation for you…

I invite you to a worktalk series I’m putting up called Into the Underworld.

Starting October 30th, we’ll meet for five Thursdays from 6 to 7:30pm Pacific Time to dive Into the Underworld at different places:

• Personal (Your Underworld)

• Relational (Underworld in couple’s dynamics)

• Parental (Underworld in the family, parents and children relating)

• Communal (Underworld in groups)

• Planetary (Underworld at the planetary level)

We’ll learn to navigate the Underworld in a way that empowers you rather than consume all of your available energy.

We’ll practice how to have this conversation with others in a way that it doesn’t come as attacking, or confronting, but rather as an invitation to be more fully you.

Will you join us?

Here is the link for the details and registration: https://forms.gle/3szTsEaTESkbDAcj6

I want a culture that embraces the Underworld and that uses it as a resource for creation, embodyment and living a rich life.

The Underworld is not pretty, it’s not nice, it’s not pleasant, it’s not divine or sacred, and it is precisely the part that we need to integrate more into our lifes to actually have the possibility of anything regenerative and in connection with reality.

Love,
Jorge

P.S.: I was previously writing in my kit.com account at jorgepedret.kit.com. Recently, I decided to switch back to Substack where most of my people are. So, I’ll be writing here from now on.

The journey of Neo in the movie The Matrix is an initiation into his Adulthood and Archetypal domains.

He started as a half-dead talented computer programmer living a life that he knew was fake, going to work to pay the bills, etc.

When Morpheus contacts him, he shows Neo the doorway to the truth, to reality, to take off the blinders that have been put on his eyes.

This is uncomfortable, and completely out of Neo’s comfort zone. Many times he’s on the verge of quitting, of stopping the journey, of going back, forgetting all about it, but…

The pain of staying in his comfort zone was greater than the pain of continuing his journey for truth.

I’m not a life coach, or a business coach, or a relationship coach, or even a feelings coach… I’m a catalyzer of the evolution of consciousness.

Coming in touch with me is painful because I remind them of the pain of staying a slave living a half-life in their comfort zone.

Here’s a video that I recorded on the importance of skill of Spaceholding as a foundation for adulthood and evolution of consciousness:

Looking at myself in the mirror these days is painful because it reminds me of how I often stay in my comfort zone and avoid life.

As I go through a major liquid state about value, and money, I start to realize the madness of the conditions that I’m carrying that stop me from being present in connection with reality.

My orientation is massively changing from living in my fantasy world, unconsciously rescuing, persecuting and being a victim of my circumstances, to an authentic path of transformation and empowerment starting where I am.

I've been going to and leaning more consistently on my support teams, discovering the ecstasy of co-creation and the magic of teamwork.

This is a shift from being a lone programmer in his dark room cracking out code, to then drowning in the pipes of Babilon, to then jumping into the Nebuchadnezzar and having a co-creation team jacked into archetypal forces working together in reality.

I want to share with you what I’ve been co-creating with my teams:

Going to an Expand The Box Training

— Expand The Box is a 5 day core training from Possibility Management which I’ve been preparing to go for the last 2 years. I’m getting my travelling paperwork in order, sourcing money to pay my debts and flying to the next ETB for my first in-person Possibility Management training space.

This is the Expand The Box website → https://expandthebox.mystrikingly.com/

Villaging - More Children, Mothers and Families

— Our family is calling in for others to collaborate with, 2-7 families interested in living together, renting out a place together, buying a piece of land, or travelling to an already existing project (like Inla Kesh in Chiapas, Mexico) sharing the context of Radical Responsibility, and co-creating new ways of relating.

I offer 1:1 and group sessions for practicing foundational villaging skills: Centering, Grounding, Basic Inner Navigation Skills Practice, Emotional Healing Processes and Rage Work.

Magic Waters - Nature Connection & Village Weaving

— A weekly program in Sooke, BC, for children 5 to 9 dedicated to play, connect and learn in nature, creating the foundations for villaging and more integrated, fun and regenerative way of living.

We’re currently looking for volunteer mentors (from age 16 onwards) who are interested in learning to become nature mentors.

Also, we have 3 spots available starting in September 2024 for new children.

Contact me for details.

Possibility Fathers Team

— A team online and in-person for supporting and creating possibilities for each other. We’re starting an in-person team meeting weekly in Sooke, BC, Canada in August 2024. This is a space for building your circles, practicing being in a space of radical responsibility, creating legends and discovering ways to fly together.

Website here → https://possibilityfathers.mystrikingly.com/

Ground Zero Flying School

— A program for bridging people from city high-tech living to nature and a natural way of being. A safe space to hit bottom, crumble, grieve, tech detox, and learn foundational ancestral skills. We’re located in Vancouver Island, Canada. Local and international clients are welcome. Details coming soon.

Pirate Games & Treasure Shop

— I’m collaborating on a Gameworld of Radically Responsible Pirates playing full-out anywhere in the world. One of the purposes of this real-life, free-to-play action game is to create new possibilities for relating, discovering and exchanging material and non-material value.

That's all for now. DM me for details about any of these offerings that you want to know more about.

If you want to stay in touch, DM me your email and I'll add you to the mailing list to receive my offers and updates directly in your inbox.

Love,
Jorge

P.S.: Immense gratitude to my online and in-person teammates: Melissa Denuzzo, Kian Nasir, Nicole Hartley Bradford, Devin Gleeson, Sonia Maia Goncalvez, Sophia Wegele, Jannine McKinnon, Kyle Kilgour, Daway Chou-Ren, Markus Bork, Diego Narvaez, Jessica Prieto, Lance Lee, Elliot Billingsley, Julia Neumann, and all others that I didn’t mention.

In honour to my friend and teammate Elijah Ignatieff AKA Captain Sweep who passed away earlier this year. Elijah deeply inspired me to become a Planetary Guardian and held space for my Edgeworking. I love you and miss you my friend.

I've been working with 2 fathers, hearing their stories and holding space for their voices to come through.

One of them started using his authentic adult voice to shut down the voices in his head that sucked the life force out of him.

The other father started using his real voice to create a father’s circle in his location and to hold space for other fathers to tell their stories.

I started a space for Fathers to unfold their stories and find their real voices.

What questions do you have about using or developing your voice? Share it in the comments.

If you want to work with me, message me and let's get working!

Love,
Jorge