I came home in a very down mood, and then suddenly something that has been buried since last weekend sparked my ire. It sparked it in such a way that the spark became a flame, which spread to a raging fire and then in no time at all I was absolutely incandescent.
It was quite cleansing, and after an hour of feeling like my insides were shaking fit to burst, it calmed.
The reason for the anger is still there, but that can be dealt with. Needs to be dealt with.
But I feel better. No doubt this mood will change, because if there's one thing I'm good at, it's having moods that can change on the spin of a coin. There's a reason my LJ is entitled The Sunshine and The Fury.
But I have done nothing of any import. I'd meant to cook dinner, make some brownies, write up some blog posts but instead I spent time with some marvellous women who buoyed me up and held me as close as they could from as far away as they are.
So, actually, I have done something after all. I reconnected with wonderful people, who think that I am pretty wonderful too.
That there is a pretty big something.
It was quite cleansing, and after an hour of feeling like my insides were shaking fit to burst, it calmed.
The reason for the anger is still there, but that can be dealt with. Needs to be dealt with.
But I feel better. No doubt this mood will change, because if there's one thing I'm good at, it's having moods that can change on the spin of a coin. There's a reason my LJ is entitled The Sunshine and The Fury.
But I have done nothing of any import. I'd meant to cook dinner, make some brownies, write up some blog posts but instead I spent time with some marvellous women who buoyed me up and held me as close as they could from as far away as they are.
So, actually, I have done something after all. I reconnected with wonderful people, who think that I am pretty wonderful too.
That there is a pretty big something.