1. Vietnamese are mostly mixed people, probably one of the most mixed people on Earth as outside people want in (rich Red River Delta and Mekong Delta). This enables us to have leverage. Whatever happens happens. You really can not argue with a Vietnamese person. They look bewildered to white people. It is like we are circling because we are mixed in the West to people.

But with that ideology, we have kids early and have staple Vietnamese jobs ??? in the West?

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So my team did something not normal according to Vietnamese culture in the last 40 years in the West.

Now what?

When can life start?

Am I pushed to push all the time?

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So yeah it is to push education and further educating yourself.

Be the man and push out what needs to be done to be an active programmer in the world.

Life can get harder if I try to freelance and work doing web development.

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What currently do I have to sell and make a living?

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Doing things previously I was met with barriers.

I will talk about them later.

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If I do change my life and try to have fun, I will be ruined.

I have to live this way or else get in trouble by the public.

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So I got to this point. I studied for 37 years and finally befriended other Vietnamese born in Canada or at least raised in Canada in the Toronto region.

Worked on some projects collaborating with the team.

It seems when Vietnamese work with Vietnamese something can come from it.

That is startling.

Usually when Vietnamese come together (if not family), things would go awkward.

The saying is that Vietnamese don’t usually get along with other Vietnamese. We are all fiercely independent.

But in the case of me and my team, I was so grossly old and withered that their was no choice to flat out support and support and learn.

That is the trick too. Most Vietnamese rather stay hip and young and fiercely independent.

The trick is to grow so, so old in the mind and body. Grow so old so there is no turning back acting young and foolish.

So old you are seen and doing old nice things like helping others and turning the page. Turning the page for new things instead of ruminating and reminiscing in the past.

That requires a lot of work, experience, understanding people, understanding cultures East and West and computing.

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So I wrote out what happened. And I feel good now. Writing it out puts things in place and develops them.

I am somewhat done now in life.

What happened???

I basically worked enough and studied enough to make a solution to massively deploy Microsoft Windows back in 2021.

That is all it is. That is what I got going. I continually update it and refine it.

What else does God give me? Do I have enough??? Yes.

Outside in public people think “What the heck!?!”. Most people dislike Microsoft in a way as they are too big. But Windows OS runs everything. You need a OS that runs everything. And runs past software from like 25 years back.

That is the problem and solution. I help create a way to enjoy installing Windows and configure it like an expensive toy with nice functional UI.

Now I have enough. People in public are angry with me how I could do it so well and fun.

They never thought about saving custom configuration files and updating the everything themselves for this product category.

People fume that I found ‘The Thing’ that is fun and customizable which is Windows OS customization.

And on top of that allow people to see the innards through PowerShell scripting. Now people have to learn PowerShell scripting. It puts people in a place to have to learn coding, scripting and PowerShell. Now everyone is a programmer. Now everyone is smart.

This wrapped up in a free standalone program that you can carry on a USB flash drive makes people mad and happy.

I have enough. I can not have more.

I can only refine it.

The people and public don’t like me having more.

Basically I stayed good since 2018 and God/Buddha and Karma gave me this.

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So everything was God/Buddha and Karma.

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I don’t want to get in trouble.

In Canada, the government and people in charge allow me to live this way.

I live Pro-Canada.

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Living so far … if you come from an agricultural background in the tropics, is there a reason not to do food stuff?

I guess everyone is different and we need variety but seriously. I could move back to Vietnam or Vancouver and open a food stuffs and be surrounded by food.

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So 50 years after the war.

My generation had its run.

I am watching the 30 years old Vietnamese born in Canada from the 2nd wave of Vietnamese from the 1990s. What did they teach me?

They did what they liked in Western society.

They just explain how things are in society scientifically with no bull.

They express how they feel immediately without going into the past or historic reasoning.

They explain themselves and their action presently so action can take place.

They get accepted in mainstream and work … ???

Explain this latter.

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So this blog is good.

I was hesitant until I started posting everything including daily encounters with public and people.

If I did not do this blog, I would have nothing but my room and its four walls. Blogging enabled me to grow and face the world. Now I can go out in the world and face the world doing what I am doing. There is merit now.

Yes, people are scared of people in the Americas.

People don’t want to break stereotypes.

But when Vietnamese and the world are dancing to algorithms then you must do something.

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What I realized about life doing stuff.

It is the men that get criticized.

The women sometimes get criticized.

But the man must keep proving himself???

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But when the man is in North America, there are certain stereotypes people like to see. How old do you have to be to prevent those bad stereotypes?

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The problem is that Vietnamese are new to North America and the West. What do people expect 50 years after the Vietnam War? Same stereotypes that could lead to total degeneracy as time passes?

At that point it is better to go back to Vietnam and sell bananas and work the fields. It is coming to that point.

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I have a friend name Chien (David) Nguyen from North Vietnam.

He has a degree in mechanical engineering from Vietnam and some college in the same field here from Scarborough.

He is 3 years younger than me. We can talk and socialize about everything. Nothing is off the table.

That is the trick. If you have trouble finding friends in life to share and relieve stress, make friends with the opposite people from your origin country with opposite fields of interests.

Without Chien, I would be stressed all the time.

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The problem with people is that they think young.

Chien and I think old and are thinking about what life is left.

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That is key in life.

What life you have left.

I ventured into life as a bottom feeder (full South Vietnamese born in Canada) and had to grow ‘old, old’ to survive.

Now I have people bothering me who are around ‘middle aged’ acting like they are 16 years old questioning me why I am doing this and that ???

I am a full South Vietnamese (bottom feeder born in the West) with no mix with parents from An Giang farmer province. I had to grow super old (wise ???) to live forward like the ancient people 5,000 years ago of the past to turn the page to live.

People criticizing me seriously really think 59 years old is the new 19 years old because that is the thing people say since like 2009. Act young and foolish and forget getting old with reason ???

What life do you have left?

It is building and coding really.

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Also if I get old and wise I can help and collab with family and friends back home in Vietnam.

To collab with Vietnamese in Vietnam you need a heck of a lot of stuff. Ample knowledge and headroom to place people here and there.

I have been working since 2015 to supply skills and knowledge back home to my family in Vietnam so we can get collaborating.

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That is the problem and needed action that must take place.

Because none of my first cousins came to the Americas, I spent almost 4 decades learning to provide a platform of education and skills to present and share for my family to work with me in case there is trouble.

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I am literally tied down.

Now you know why I did this and that and you guys are critical of me.

Nothing is really fun for a bottom feeder full South Vietnamese with no mix.

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So basically I became an engineer for my family.

I studied biology, chemistry and computers so I could do stuff.

I really did have to. With my skills I can resolve issues rather than complain.

That is the trick. If you are born in Canada or some other First World country, why would you not become someone with lots of skills to counter problems of life?

Survival? Not quite, just seeing problems so often that you would rather solve them.

It was an innate feeling I had to do so.

But I suppose when a man gets older with enough life experiences, he would do the same and get skilled and educated to the teeth.

Especially if there is a woman involved that likes ‘work’ and ‘talking’

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And why not get the multiple educations. I am 42 years old with a few papers. Getting a degree is 4-5 years. Do the math and you should be able to do the same if not more if you wanted to explore what is in front you and manipulate it.

But seriously, I am the only kid in the family willing to save and take care of both sides of the family. As a middle child I felt the need. Ask most middle children if they feel tasked to take on this role.

And again I am full South Vietnamese, I got let go from some jobs because I am full South Vietnamese here in Canada. No newcomers from 1975 are needed is the reason.

But as an old guy, you should pivot to learning as you age to get all the good stuff from research and independent study. The final decades would be great and pluses.

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But again I live in Canada, if not now then later???

It would be nice to get skilled to the teeth maybe now or later.

It is healthy and feels good.

I am built valuing internally. But because of Canada and just living life I learned to live externally.

People in healthcare understand what I mean. I worked in pharmacy as a tech and learned from patients and people. When you are learning you are healthy all the time. That is the trick of working in healthcare. And because you are in pharmacy you learn the 4D dynamics of caring for patients and drug interactions making you smart and super on top of things and healthy.

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But people working in computer coding are mostly growing everyday and are unaffected by anything.

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1. 2nd gen Vietnamese born women in Canada are looking for another 2nd gen Vietnamese born man in Canada to grow old together. No one wants to die and live alone. Who will microwave the leftover pizza for me? Out of kindergarten, the Vietnamese women notice right away that life is just work in the West. Need RRSP or at least a good company/government pension to spend money on outside Triple-Triple extra large coffees and 2x biscuits. The women looks to partner up with a Vietnamese guy who likes to work and save money and read books.

I played too much and idled too much and never realized this was at the core of Vietnamese women born here. They are suffering trying to play both worlds. They are looking for stability to die together in Canada and vacation at least once a year to Vietnam or the Caribbean.

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I guess I learned my lesson.

Time to work.

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Good thing I went back to the Vietnamese community in Toronto in 2021 and realized all this.

I stayed good since 2018 and God provided the path to salvation.

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My other siblings like my older brother and older sister struggle because they did not find someone.

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I guess they needed to find someone in Toronto that is 2nd gen Vietnamese born in Canada from Boat People parents too.

They are there.

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So I deleted my main Instagram account yesterday. It is permanently deleted (2nd one is being deleted too – will take another couple of weeks) because I got DMs which I don’t like to see. It is not safe and mature from what I experienced over the last 5 – 6 years using it.

I am an old, old farty that likes my cheap iced instant coffee and biscuits and don’t want people posting stories pressuring me to listen and watch them 365/24/7.

I pushed and pushed and now I am an old man with a solid good routine.

Are you an old, old man with a good routine yet that you are proud of? If yes, great! Keep it up so you live healthy and long. Enjoy inexpensive coffees and books! Plenty of those. Books will outlast you probably. Tons of things to do with that book knowledge.

Instagram was like 1000% spam with no way to stop it when it launches on your phone. They move the UI around and videos auto-plays causing you to see the feed which causes anxiety and weird feelings. That is unacceptable for me.

I am pretty sure Instagram and similar apps like TikTok I will never really use again. They are just full of anxiety. They make the world dance to their algorithm. I don’t like dancing. I like coffee. I don’t understand what I am getting in exchange. I want a good cup of coffee instead of dancing and anxiety.

I think when Facebook arrived and then YouTube that was enough social media in the world back in 2006 – 2007 ???

Making a FB post requires a lot of work and has to be family friendly. FB looks friendly. It has a nice theme.

Same with YouTube. It has to be family friendly 10000% on YouTube. Making a YouTube worthy video takes so much time and effort. To be popular on YouTube requires you to have manners. The theme of YouTube hasn’t really changed since 2006.

That was when the world made sense.

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So how come my parents don’t get racially profiled when they go outside?

Then I realized this …

North America just has a range for people according to race if they are born here.

Because I am full South Vietnamese I get placed in the bad part of the range because there needs to be those people in the range.

Therefore, it is impossible to have kids in Canada if you are 2nd generation.

The majority and people higher up the ladder just put people in a range automatically according to country.

It does make sense because it is natural to. But it wrecks havoc when society is basically in a bad state for the last 6 years since the pandemic and getting worse.

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So I developed software to help deploy Microsoft Windows and still get racially profiled.

I guess society has finally collapsed.

Good thing I stopped spending and saving money and will return to Vietnam. I can not handle this here.

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Do people always actively think?

I am not sure as my health is bad.

All life is work.

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So I grew up in Ajax and was treated badly.

I get treated racially.

But I am an Ajax person.

That is normal.

But when it is time to get work and money and family, you realize growing up in Canada stunted you.

People treated you as the bad guy all your life so how are you supposed to get things done for a family?

Just work with similar frequency people. Allan and Ben I get along with.

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So life in Canada especially in Oshawa was external.

I bounced back and forth between Scarborough and Oshawa thinking I could have a store clerk job in some ethnic grocer.

Did I finally accept to code for the rest of my life???

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Why working is so enticing as an Asian.

As an Asian, I thought the lifestyles of modern day East Asians are great. But in reality I can not get access to current East Asian networks because of whatever reasons.

Then I realize because I am old as farts (I am born in 1984 so I am a millennial), the old ways of life from the 1950s – 1970s take lead.

Back then, East Asia was still not developed. East Asians got help from Europeans and America to build their country and mindset. They bought Western teachers to teach them and travelled to the West to learn.

Even Chinese had their own PCs built and researched in the Americas in the 1950s.

What does that tell you? Transistors and basic knowledge of computer building started in the 1950’s range in the West and is not controlled or culturally associated with East Asians in Japan and Taiwan.

If you want to learn transistors from the start, just learn now in your location.

Overtime East Asians like Taiwan got associated with chip fabs.

But in reality it started in the Americas. The basic building blocks are here.

So to disassociate yourself and study well is to just study in your spot. Disregard cultural and racial associations. That is the truly bad thing about Asians. They bonded their multinational companies to their race.

Just because some East Asian companies have large multinational companies, other Asians praise them.

But they started in the West and got supported by teachers from the West.

That is something to think about.

No one want to be treated less based on race and their country’s accomplishments. But that does happen sometimes.

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The old stereotype of an Asian man (South or East and maybe Southeast) in dress pants and dress shirt going to school and work rises and trumps above everything. Life from the 1950s – 1970s I think was great. That is guaranteed success and goals for coloured folk.

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The problem is networking and going full throttle.

As a full Vietnamese that is from the South and old as your grandfather’s farts, living and from Oshawa, I am not afraid. This is GM country …

I am 42 years old, worked tons of social jobs and made tons of mistakes.

People questioning me or asking me stuff are just people who maybe did not work enough ‘low-paying’ social jobs to understand people.

I even worked at Fast Food and Buffets. Those cemented me to understand the human psyche which is:

“People want to eat. People want it free really and will still treat you second after you help and serve them. Learning is hard. So I will keep the knowledge for myself.”

After you understand customer service then you understand what people are doing talking to you and about you.

Are you wasting my time? Are you in it for yourself? Who benefits from this interaction?

But as an old fart, I am OK. I can share. I don’t mind. If I don’t share I will get in trouble. As a full South Vietnamese I have to share or I get in big trouble.

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I grew up in the 1990s wanting to do.

I jumped back in the game in 2020.

My brother waited for me to grow up. My older brother William Nguyen is 4 years older.

He lived true to himself since he was young and ignored my father, mother and siblings pushing him to do classical sciences for a routine lab job.

He pursued creative arts watching all sorts of media online and on cable/antenna and spent money for Blockbuster.

He waited for me to grow up since 2009. He waited for his younger brother to program. Now we can create stuff. We can create media and apps. We collab and sync really well.

In 2020 we launched BenchTweakGaming.com. Back then it was a fusion of gaming, tweaking programs and benchmarking … We tried to monetize it too.

We found a niche instead of competing for jobs.

Simply we are outliers of society (full Vietnamese and Southern) so in time we found a part of world that we could play and work in.

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Learning for a degree and learning for work can be address by doing your thing.

If you have enough need and passion, eventually you learn the necessary things to do it and also grow and possibly grow, grow.

The idea of race, culture and countries are eliminated in daily discussion because when you are the bottom feeder outlier (full South Vietnamese) in the eyes of the world, you simply can not talk in ‘race’. You talk in life, pursuits and adventure.

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So that is the mindset of full South Vietnamese in North America (Canada).

Is it good or bad? Is it normal or abnormal? Is it 50 : 50? Kind of yes.

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After 5 – 6 years since 2020, I got pretty cemented in coding easier.

Daily for the next year, I would share this stable level of skill and knowledge to the rest of the immediate family and then William had a level of skill to produce some cool creative works.

If you Google my brother you will see some of his works.

Self-expression and survival as 2nd generation Vietnamese people born in the West.

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Basically, since 2018 after seeing how different people are in the 21st century near and far, I turned off social media (never posted a picture of me on Instagram/TikTok) and let God send me hints on proper living.

Keep morals high and mighty.

I am protected by faith God/Buddha and Karma.

My life is good and I have plenty of delicious inexpensive instant coffee, tons of cheap biscuits and live in safe supportive Canada.

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Also if I compete for computer programming jobs it would be so bad for me as I don’t really compete. This is because I am an Ajax kid at heart. I am from mainly Ajax, Ontario and liked to work nights doing labour jobs alone.

My first real job was nights in the produce section and I got along with the night crew and the lifestyle of supermarkets.

If I could not work computers or whatever, I would return to nights again.

I enjoy food too. A nice Italian coffee and Italian donut is such a reward after working nights in the morning.

I kind of like using my body if I think young and aloof. My family lineage is somewhat farmers. It feels super cool to use the body. Maintaining your body for peak physical work at a job is crazy fun and cool.

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The reason why I sync and collab well with Ben Cybulski, William Nguyen, Simon Fisher, Dmitry Nefedov, etc. is because:

• I learned collaboration is best way. Collaboration is usually better than one person. Collaboration takes simple ideas and broadcasts them according to the number of people involved.
• Simply, you had to learn a lot to collab. Learn a lot to collab just to live in the West. It is about survival first. I took upon my self as a middle child in the family to study this much and help the family. But seriously, we live in Canada so no much worries. That main target was dignity. And why not?
• The problem with people sometimes is that they actually believe in sex, drugs and rock and roll. Look at me. I believed in God/Buddha and Karma and got all this in 3 – 4 years since 2018. I released the fun product in late 2020. If you don’t believe in God then you don’t care enough for your wellbeing and future.

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The survival mindset isn’t really a survival mindset for Vietnamese residing in modern First World countries.

All Vietnamese can at least work in their staple jobs.

Your parents just want you to work. Simply work and have kids. Repeat. So you stop acting like a baby and get out of your crib.

The idea of survival is quite stupid in modern First World countries. All you have to do is find a women that understands Canada, preferable one born in Canada and have some stable job and put out babies.

The people complaining about survival and doing what they want are just delaying having kids. Parents want you out there making babies with a woman that is 100% mature. Once you have kids you become exactly like your parents and then want your kids having kids and working even the staple jobs.

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My mother and father scolded me since day one.

My mother thinks I am stupid still to this day not monetizing the products.

But society knows what I am doing.

But what now?

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I can not be a social media guy.

I can not simply compete on YouTube and social media as I am a guy and full South Vietnamese.

To live morally is to create without a face. That is the best health and route to choose since 10,000 years ago.

Tell me where can I get snagged and troubled and bothered by not showing up in your social media feed?

Life before in your face technology is the route like back in the 1960s – 70s when it took 2 weeks to film and produce videos to be displayed on your local TV station.

Photos took at least a month to appear in your newspaper.

The millennial generation had it the best to focus and center and recenter their energy. Nothing appeared and you had to read books and imagine to get that constant feed of exciting thinking and things to do.

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How to test a woman?

It is easy. Get a routine staple stable job and see if they willing to date you and marry you and have your kids.

If they are smart and mature, they don’t mind.

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We went to get bubble tea on the main road North.

What did I learn about growing up with a sibling married?

Relax and take time and enjoy. Tons of time left and at around 40s we are just winging it.

But when I am still living with my parents life is go-go ??!??!?!?!?!??

My parents forced me to mature at their rate. LOL!

Holy shit I am tired and stressed. But kind of happy overall.

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When we were drinking bubble tea as a family, I realized what I did.

This was 2 years ago.

We were at a multicultural area and the coloured people sat played nicely with the majority here.

Over the last 6-7 years I played the model minority role and played nicely with the majority and got to where I wanted in society with my software and websites.

Coloured people shopping and getting drinks noticed that my success was because I played nicely with the majority and the customers that were coloured understood what I did and listened.

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I am not saying playing second flute is what happened.

I got really old and studied sciences so that had merit.

I studied chemistry, biology and computers so those things were logical and fair depending how much you knew. The more you know the better evidence. Simply that is all it is.

So what is the message?

If you grow up quick, you realize studying maths are the answer for voice and upwards mobility in society.

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Holy shits … so I finished school in 2023 … as a Vietnamese child of Boat People I created this blog the 4th time … I talk about this and that. What has it come to?

I guess because I am full South Vietnamese with no admixture, I had to write a blog to explore and journal life at this old stage where I am not working 9 – 5.

This might help other Vietnamese understand what like is like not working 9 – 5 and working towards yourself for feeling good and upwards growth.

Before I was sick, sick and sick. Down, down and down. Unhappy, unhappy and unhappy.

In the past things were linear, at a set level and things never could circle until my brother and I jumped ship and did what we liked.

Canada and North America has systemic thinking … so I had to change to think in levels too but positively and universally accounting for the levels too ???

Thinking this way requires a lot of thinking, a lot of work to universally think.

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I think this blog is setup good now.

I need to at V1 posts and V2 posts from the past to make it a source for new programmers of immigrant background again learning to develop custom software and to learn the roadmap.

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So after conversations … the routine is:

1. Talk fun with your worldwide friends
2. Talk business with your worldwide friends
3. Repeat 1. 2.
4. Repeat 1. 2.
5. Reflect
6. Think
7. Somehow you solve the rumination and you get some new ideas
8. Do some of the new ideas

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The trick is to think and build like forward people. That means build, learn, grow and open the mind like Western people.

As long as you can do that sometimes you are OK.

Sometimes as a Vietnamese 2nd gen, you must land thinking Vietnamese.

It is to recharge and fly again.

Listen to Vietnamese music before 1975 and some modern ones in 2022+.

Cycle back and forth.

That is the key. But always moving forward overall.

Like you should learn and grow all the time. Do that internally as the first goal. But if I think I do that, it seems odd and off. But everyone has the goal to learn and also escape to the beaches.

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You need to learn all the time like past immigrants. That is all it is.

Just know and acknowledge that quietly.

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Secret to running …

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The Full House …

In family as a whole unit people take roles as children and as adults when the family is struggling to become well.

But once they get older in their 40s it stops as it is a battle of ego, direction and staying relevant.

I am the youngest in the family now as my youngest sister is married and moved away.

There were problems in the beginning and now our family is good because I stayed good and believed in God. Our success with the studying and software and websites …

Now because I am youngest now even after the good things, the older people in the family strive for more and more treating me lesser and lesser and as the punching bag.

They become right and Western while I become wrong and Eastern. I get used and abused even after all the good things.

Aren’t we supposed to stay in our rooms reading fiction and non-fiction to enjoy life as we made enough strides? Thanks God, Thanks Canada and Thanks everyone!

The youngest helped fix the transcend the family because he is the middle child and now gets treated like the worst person in the world.

Now I got to move out of the house to my own house because I am the punching bag for them to practice their strength and power struggle with whomever for relevancy and good feelings.

That is just life.

That is how family’s grow and become fortunate and disband because the older siblings need to hold on to their strength and health and abuse the middle people and below in the family.

That is why in Americas everyone moves out from their parents houses to become independent.

It is just normal.

Now I got to move out and live on my own.

I got abused 3 times today. And that is just normal in North America. North America is just about survival and independence.

Anything good like doing great and making money and strides are good but worthless as the name of the game is independence and survival.

I had enough.

Maybe it is just the ‘Oshawa frequency for more and more work’ ?????????????????????????

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Now I understand why some men do work they hate and have a family and struggle but are happy at least they have kids to push them day to day.

If I continue to live my way and let my brother and sisters live their way, I will suffer too and never have a family of my own as we still work as a unit.

That is the dual edge, our family went the super super easy route and do what we like and not do normal staple Vietnamese jobs. Then none of the kids had their own kids.

But at least if you had a normal job you at least had kids. The normal struggle is the right. It is having kids.

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But this phenomenon was new. My mom is from An Giang Muong Trau so she is representing her turf.

But we live in Oshawa where we can get work and explore.

This combination worked.

But we must work hard and not spend time doing too much ‘art/creative work’ and do more logical work.

If you want kids and a family, you must do the labour and work hard for the wife.

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So in 2023, Sun Group company in Vietnam sponsored ‘Music Travel Love / Endless Summer (Old band name)’ to advertise Vietnam for travel.

This song is my life.

I don’t know what I am doing.

This reflects my life born in Oshawa, growing up in Ajax, educated a bit in Scarborough and moving back to Oshawa. With trips only back to Vietnam 6 times throughout my life.

Does Sun Group know me? The head person probably is old as my parents and could give birth to me. Probably understand me as he/she seen many people travel to and from Vietnam as they work in tourism and development.

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In May 2020, I pivoted back to doing computer coding to finish my diploma I started back in September 2017.

By the end of 2020, Ben and I created the Windows 10 Debloater which was something.

Over the next 6 years, we grew and the team grew.

Some people noticed.

Some people want in the game …

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What can I tell you?

I had a computer since 1995 using Windows 3.1 with upgrade to 3.11.

In 1996 I was in grade 6. That is when the world turn upside down.

Classmates started dating, seeing in colour, opportunity and intelligence differences, hate, grouping, networks, love and even support.

What did I decide to do? Play on the computer all day because I felt it was the way. Computer became my companion. I needed a computer to aid in my learning …

I knew something wasn’t right in Ajax, Ontario. I felt supported and unsupported.

Some people liked me and supported me.

But I went alone in this because I felt unsure about the decisions I was going to make about relationships based on race.

Was I going to stay Vietnamese-Canadian? or group up? group up with who?

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I made the choice to think about education, skills and work by using a computer.

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That is all really. But my mom born me a computer guy ???

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I saved myself from the questionable grouping of either being coloured or with the majority. I stayed independent and worked alone.

The world is a crazy place in 2026.

I am still independent.

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I became an independent and was stunted socially and stunted intellectually out here.

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Now what do you hear on the news in 2026?

Is it good? Is it bad? Are you affected? By how much?

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So I believed in God, was pretty good for a Vietnamese-Canadian, did not group up, stayed good since 2018 and now people want to play with our team …

Do you believe in God, Buddha, Karma? Or is everything 50:50?

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But the answer is stay in a location that can give you the knowledge and skills to produce, build and provide.

Turn on the +5% Western frequency by zoning out going on tangents. Sit there in front of your mission control computer and scribble away.

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