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Tumblr backtracked on its horrible update, but I still want to use this site more. I'll cross-post things here, check my reading page, and my inbox some other time.
TFF is next weekend and I have 3 days off in a row today. What I roughly want to do in the coming days:
- I gave my mom some cash to do our laundry while I'm at work today. That's one important thing done.
- I have to go visit my father's house tomorrow because the stupid racist old man can't pick up after himself without a woman around, and his personality is too ugly to remarry a 3rd or 4th time. Many such cases. Hopefully I can get some cash in exchange for doing his chores.
- I want to see if I can transfer the contents of my current Ivy itabag to my new itabag. The con is my coffin shaped itabag was a good gimmick, the pro is the new bag can work as a purse and I want to advertise the most kino FE game as often as I can. I started last night and arranging the keychains on the insert has been hell. I don't want to give up and put them back in the coffin bag, but that's the worst case scenario.
-- (I should get more alien tape, though...)
- Tamers12345 has a new episode on Friday, so ideally I can catch up on the episodes by then. Otherwise I'm probably watching MLP Tales with a Bluesky mutual.
- I need to compile the stuff I want to give away and trade at TFF. A reprint of the stickers I gave out at Harmonycon should come in the mail soon, but I have collectibles and LPS toys I want to trade.
- I need to draw more :(
- My site is currently retired but I have a piece in progress called "Green Man Go Home and the tolerance paradox"... guess what it's about... I considered not writing essays anymore, but being in irl social spaces and Bluesky made me realize I desperately need my own area to air out grey area opinions. Sigh.
TFF is next weekend and I have 3 days off in a row today. What I roughly want to do in the coming days:
- I gave my mom some cash to do our laundry while I'm at work today. That's one important thing done.
- I have to go visit my father's house tomorrow because the stupid racist old man can't pick up after himself without a woman around, and his personality is too ugly to remarry a 3rd or 4th time. Many such cases. Hopefully I can get some cash in exchange for doing his chores.
- I want to see if I can transfer the contents of my current Ivy itabag to my new itabag. The con is my coffin shaped itabag was a good gimmick, the pro is the new bag can work as a purse and I want to advertise the most kino FE game as often as I can. I started last night and arranging the keychains on the insert has been hell. I don't want to give up and put them back in the coffin bag, but that's the worst case scenario.
-- (I should get more alien tape, though...)
- Tamers12345 has a new episode on Friday, so ideally I can catch up on the episodes by then. Otherwise I'm probably watching MLP Tales with a Bluesky mutual.
- I need to compile the stuff I want to give away and trade at TFF. A reprint of the stickers I gave out at Harmonycon should come in the mail soon, but I have collectibles and LPS toys I want to trade.
- I need to draw more :(
- My site is currently retired but I have a piece in progress called "Green Man Go Home and the tolerance paradox"... guess what it's about... I considered not writing essays anymore, but being in irl social spaces and Bluesky made me realize I desperately need my own area to air out grey area opinions. Sigh.
one last post
Mar. 16th, 2026 10:38 pmI'm kind of divorcing /mlp/ because it invokes the tolerance paradox too hard, but it still has some useful resources... I don't know if I'm ready to commit to getting into a new craft hobby, but I found this plushie tutorial and free pattern:
https://ko-fi.com/s/ee266550ff
I do find Anonfilly cute still... If I ever use this pattern I might make an OC instead.
https://ko-fi.com/s/ee266550ff
I do find Anonfilly cute still... If I ever use this pattern I might make an OC instead.
ruh roh raggy
Mar. 16th, 2026 09:08 pmSo is this new Tumblr bullshit that breaks notes and gives comments on reblogs their own separate notes what breaks Tumblr (again)? If a migration happens and sticks, can it please be on a longform website like Dreamwidth (hi) or Pillowfort?
I have issues with Tumblr but making my blog deindexed and turning off reblogs on personal posts led to building a semi-regulated space that other sites don't have, I'd love for a move to here but I am noooooot confident. People still stay on Twitter despite Musk and a built-in revenge porn generator being present. Oh well.
I have issues with Tumblr but making my blog deindexed and turning off reblogs on personal posts led to building a semi-regulated space that other sites don't have, I'd love for a move to here but I am noooooot confident. People still stay on Twitter despite Musk and a built-in revenge porn generator being present. Oh well.
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Mar. 16th, 2026 01:44 pmI don't check here often, but. Ever since I attended that room party last month I had a bile fascination with /mlp/ 4chan culture. I legitimately feel like I uncovered a secret society. I'm trying to attempt a piece but this phenomenon was big enough to have several articles written about it. I knew about the Derpibooru conflict during the BLM protests, but there's an academic study about how the /mlp/ community is characterized by insistent emphasis on failed heterosexuality. (Catbox routinely goes up-and-down, so if you can see this I recommend archiving it. This is really, really good.)
/mlp/ (Wikipedia)
Criticism of the My Little Pony: Friendship Is Magic fandom (Wikipedia)
Pony Up Haters: How 4chan Gave Birth to the Bronies
My Little Pony Fans Are Ready to Admit They Have a Nazi Problem
An online battle is raging between Nazis and 'My Little Pony' fans
Pony Nationalism and the Furred Reich: Inside the Alt-Furry's Online Zoo
X-posted thoughts:
3/14
Last night is when things get every cursed -_-
3/15
I am not looking at /mlp/ again for a long while.
But yes. I've been suicidal lately and tend to browse 4chan when I'm suicidal. I'm not sugarcoating anything. Maybe I'll finish my shitty "opinion post" before the con next week?
X-posted thoughts:
3/14
i found out last weekend that anons occasionally post videos taken at their events in various /mlp/ threads and i just watched a video from mare fair of two dudes arm wrestling and one yells “I LOVE FLUTTERSHY!” and the third guy watching chants “MARES! MARES! MARES!” while they’re wrestling
#i found another one from pone voyage where the normie comedian on the cruise comments on the audience's pony plushies #i'm wondering if anyone recorded the “bring back christine” chant because i will never forgive myself for having my phone in my pocket then
i hate being actually autistic and not the quirky kind because i realize for the last month i’ve posting about mlp and anons. i’m aware of how ugly and off-putting it makes me look. i feel like i’ll be put on a blocklist if i post anywhere else that the mare fair animations are highkey brilliant.
oh well. it’ll pass
#it makes me feel like an investigative journalist #i think it was last year i found out about mare fair? and it was via that awful photo lol
i’m too woke for /mlp/ but too chuddy for everywhere else. i’m falling down a /mlp/ rabbit hole for videos people posted of funny irl stuff and i found a dude recording himself making an anonfilly plushie in his room with sewing materials and an embroidery machine. and it’s like ok i don’t think i can commit to sewing but this is actually really useful reference. and then i notice a 3d printed white pony with no visible features and i’m wondering if it’s a canon character or
i don't know what i expected.jpg
i think if it’s not clear i find the fan culture more interesting than the actual cartoon sometimes. it’s like it’s own little world completely divorced from canon. tamers or fallout equestria or people’s OCs or convention mascots barely feel like the same thing to me
#whinny city has really cute mascots that looked like a family but i was told they aren't
Last night is when things get every cursed -_-
Your waifu is WHO?
3/15
oh no…
i think i need to stop combing /mlp/ archives for videos because i found some waifu tulpa thread from last fall and one of the recurring posters is an unironic waifucel for aryanne and claimed to have “married” her at a mare fair panel last year. i don’t think this is trolling. this is some dedicated schizo who even visited germany
wow i totally understand why mare fair is banning all politics this year HOLY SHIT!!!!!!! everything i read about this con is either really crazy and awesome or absolutely horrible
can i please become autistic about something else because i’m seeing things i could’ve gone without knowing
#i used to go on /feg/ when i was suicidal and now i'm on /mlp/ daily
i don’t think drawing the bad pony is automatically cancellable since it depends on context, but uh. i think if you own or create physical merch of it, you’re an absolute fucking weirdo AT BEST. i can’t believe what i’m looking at. do i even tag this post.
#i found a photo of a life sized plushie in someone's room #i swear to god i'm not “”“woke”“” or whatever but this is the craziest “legal” photo i've ever seen #my eyes are wide open i can't believe what i'm seeing #i don't think it's AI or a deepfake. i kind of hope it is but i can't find any metadata #it was apparently posted only once because it has a unique hash #i think i shgould finish my vodka
I am not looking at /mlp/ again for a long while.
But yes. I've been suicidal lately and tend to browse 4chan when I'm suicidal. I'm not sugarcoating anything. Maybe I'll finish my shitty "opinion post" before the con next week?
(Originally posted March 12th, I've considered cross-posting my shitposts or short form takes here, but I'm too tired and depressed. I tend to see DW as more "dignified" than a crude shitpost space.)
I'm trying to write an actual blog post about this, but I'm too tired an unmotivated to write. This was mainly inspired by the amount of drama I came home to after Harmonycon last month, since it was first pony con and discovering how it was chuddier than I expected. I had fun with the "melting pot" atmosphere and even the with channers there, but then there were bad actors being racist idiots as expected.
Since this bullet point list is also a rough draft and fetal stage of a take, there's some nuances I left out. Not "all" cons or social events are by /mlp/ people, but some do collaborate or participate and run their own (ex. Mare Fair, Pone Voyage).
I feel like I've discovered a secret society after attending a /mlp/ adjacent room party. I've been debating on "investigating" Mare Fair since this year is finally banning Nazi content and trying to clean up their act, but that would cost roughly ~$600 (rounded up, not counting food) to go by myself lmfao. My credit card can handle it, but I've never traveled alone before...
the on-and-off mlp drama between the channers and everyone else is complicated and simple at the same time. it’s not even unique to a 15 year old cartoon lol
1. g4 unfortunately catching the attention of 4chan was why it became popular. /co/ and later /mlp/ built the early foundations and spread it to other platforms before more people caught onto it
2. that being said, spaces grow and evolve, for better or for worse. you can’t project your worldview onto a big tent just like they can’t do that to you
3. you will also sound insane for trying to claim apolitical memes as dogwhistles (ex. the mares chant, snowpity or anonfilly) while not being able to explain why
4. but if your site’s culture is known for being aggressive and offensive, that’s going to put most people off and dislike you
5. the lasting consequences of the ye old tumblrpon war between the libfems and MRAs 13 years ago. you have one side that is “wholesome” but prone to canceling people or moving goal posts (ex. “molestia normalizes rape culture but 50 shades is totally fine”), versus… trolls and racists who have gotten worse post-/pol/ and will also harass people. horseshoe moment 🥁
6. which unfortunately turns into a recruitment tactic. if the inclusive “good guys” are incredibly toxic, why bother being a good guy? /mlp/ are the ones organizing or helping with social events and running websites, and you won’t be canceled for making an off color joke or an opinion. i actually like /mlp/ more when it isn’t racist lol
7. at the same time, /mlp/’s overly permissive culture turns their spaces into a nazi bar. see: aryanne, twitter, /mlpol/, the infamous mare fair photos. that’s the toxic side of “true” tolerance
8. BUT - would designating the people who aren’t complete psychos in that echo chamber and not exposing them to “outsiders” make things worse? what do we do?
the issue is choosing between social surveillance and having no standards. there’s a solution but nobody is going to like or do it. so this will go on.
I'm trying to write an actual blog post about this, but I'm too tired an unmotivated to write. This was mainly inspired by the amount of drama I came home to after Harmonycon last month, since it was first pony con and discovering how it was chuddier than I expected. I had fun with the "melting pot" atmosphere and even the with channers there, but then there were bad actors being racist idiots as expected.
Since this bullet point list is also a rough draft and fetal stage of a take, there's some nuances I left out. Not "all" cons or social events are by /mlp/ people, but some do collaborate or participate and run their own (ex. Mare Fair, Pone Voyage).
I feel like I've discovered a secret society after attending a /mlp/ adjacent room party. I've been debating on "investigating" Mare Fair since this year is finally banning Nazi content and trying to clean up their act, but that would cost roughly ~$600 (rounded up, not counting food) to go by myself lmfao. My credit card can handle it, but I've never traveled alone before...
Random cross-posts
Mar. 6th, 2026 02:04 pmFrom literally today:
what i absolutely don't miss about being on neocities constantly was how people constantly shilled forums, journaling sites, or mastodon as a social media alternative with more "freedom"... but interacting with people on these platforms was identical to social media, if not worse. i've withdrawn a lot after a lot of traumatic incidents in the last 2 years but my biggest frustration is "deleting twitter" hasn't done shit when people on "good" websites like forums will misinterpret my words, not actually respond to or engage with what i say, or just give filler responses. geez! is it any wonder AI chat bots are all the rage?From 1AM this morning (lol)
being drunk is fun when you're amused by every little thing, but then it stops being fun when you remember you're a damaged person with poisoned thoughts and will never have close contacts againMarch 5th:
i probably posted this weeks ago but i tried to come back to twitter after the last con to find people and it's not only a literal uphill climb to get noticed by the algo if you have no followers, but i'm literally 3 clicks away from actual nazi rhetoric and i never use nazi to mean "right of center" or "person i disagree with" i'm talking about actual (((them))) dogwhistles and even hammer-and-sickle in bios are reposting actual /pol/ rhetoric lmfao. and even former friends wouldn't believe me i'm still angry i had a leftist friend handwave how too many people i knew went full nazi in the last 3 years with "well they weren't worth knowing anyway". but i don't talk to the company i used to anymore, so whatever. neither were youMarch 5th, again:
i do feel some old school tumblr nostalgia despite the dogpiling and callouts that went on. it’s crazy to see the reason why i used the site be near-completely gone now. but i’m also sad how i can’t reconnect with most mutuals or favorite bloggers from a decade+ ago because they either hardblocked me in 2018-2021 or we won’t get along anymore due to major political differences LOL. my mind is tainted is i guess #gamergate + 2016/2020/2024 election + pandemic + russia invading ukraine + oct 7th ruined everything lol #and we're already cycling through this again #i spent my entire adult life playing along with shit for the sake of keeping friends and it hasn't worked #but ~being true to myself~ works even less so what is there even to doMarch 1st:
sometimes i get why the median american is like that, the break room TV is playing fox news and there's near constant gambling ads in between news
pony plush patterns
Feb. 23rd, 2026 10:00 amPony plushies are apparently a status symbol at cons, but they're expensive for obvious reasons. But luckily there are patterns online to make one at home? I'm not sure if I want to get into sewing, but I'm curious how easy/hard a very small one would be to make.
https://make.smol.horse/ (I can't archive this, but I saved an offline copy of the pdf.)
https://imgur.com/a/tiny-pone-ep-pattern-K4L3Q (archive)
derpibooru.org/images/152249https://www.deviantart.com/cavelupa/art/Updated-Pony-Plush-Pattern-337440530 (archive)
Thinking about using the access-only features to post about serious and more private things, like the room party I had last weekend. I figured I was going to have an "anyone who adds me to their circle gets added to mine" but I haven't gotten around to it. So I guess you can comment/ask if you want to see more personal and less mundane postings. I mainly have meta related stuff in mind.
https://make.smol.horse/ (I can't archive this, but I saved an offline copy of the pdf.)
https://imgur.com/a/tiny-pone-ep-pattern-K4L3Q (archive)
derpibooru.org/images/152249https://www.deviantart.com/cavelupa/art/Updated-Pony-Plush-Pattern-337440530 (archive)
Thinking about using the access-only features to post about serious and more private things, like the room party I had last weekend. I figured I was going to have an "anyone who adds me to their circle gets added to mine" but I haven't gotten around to it. So I guess you can comment/ask if you want to see more personal and less mundane postings. I mainly have meta related stuff in mind.
crunk at Harmonycon 2026
Feb. 16th, 2026 09:15 amThis post is a day late because I spent the 15th hung over! I'm off work today but I work the rest of this week AND 38 hours next week, so let's get this post over with while it's still morning...
My brain is all over the place so I need to just compile notes. I'm trying to be in order of events, but this is also going on a tangent.
I'm considering giving access to people and making a locked post about the room party, this was simultaneously crazy and mundane.
My brain is all over the place so I need to just compile notes. I'm trying to be in order of events, but this is also going on a tangent.
- FAMOUSLY, Harmonycon 2026 is probably going to go down as the convention Chris Chan was kicked out of. This info was completely sprung on me, I was standing in line for over an hour to get Tabitha St. Germain's autograph. Someone next to us showed us footage of him getting escorted out of the building... And another video circulated of the con owner trying to take the phones of people recording the incident, holy shit.
- I got mixed signals from this con in general. One of the first things I saw was a small Anonfilly plush suspended by balloons. It's very difficult to separate G4 from it's 4chan roots but this con was a smidge chuddier than I expected at certain moments. On Saturday there was an anon meetup. Literally. A bunch of men were wearing green masks and congregated in the lobby outside the game room, and they were chanting shit like "MARES! MARES! MARES!" and "BRING BACK CHRISTINE!" after the incident on Friday. Very surreal to see. There's photos, including one I took, but I wish I recorded the latter chant.
- I also suspect that uh, one of these anons drew the SS runes in the communal sketchbook. I ripped it out before I left.... for fuck's sake......
- I grabbed a lot of stickers and business cards as usual. I um, found a very cursed button from Mare Fair that I feel like I'll be put on a watchlist for having. And a highlight on Friday was a card for therapy and marriage counselling for bronies. Very cool!
- Mare Fair came up often... I'm honestly not sure what to think about it, because the shit I've seen online differs from the anecdotal things I've been told. But there was a small pocket of /mlp/ users here among the 1600+ attendees. I'm morbidly curious about it despite the rancid things I've read, but I can't leave DFW anytime soon even for a weekend. On top of the extremely cursed button I found, I have an Anonfilly magnet on the fridge now and... Some Mare Fair 2025 bottled scent from Snowpity? It actually smells decent...
- My autograph from Tabitha St. Germain was worth it, but I can't take a photo because she used a silver sharpie for it :( So a scan will come one day. I literally missed 2 panels waiting in line for it!
- The Hyatt is, as usual, very hideously expensive for vending. I use my credit card for food but most of the money I spent was using my credit card. My lunch and dinner on Friday were decent, as were the martinis I got at the bar, but holy shit. I got very tired before 9PM on Friday and couldn't make it to the 18+ panels that night, so I drank more caffeine the next day. The cost for sodas and energy drinks are complete robbery. $6.50 for a fucking Celsius when $6 can get you 3 cans. The only decently priced deal was my dinner on Saturday, which was $15 for a grilled chicken sandwich, small bag of chips that's normally $4, a soda, and a free tumbler with Dallas on it. The prices made me so mad that I grabbed another Celsius for my soda...
- One of the first panels I went to was about making friends at conventions... I am still struggling with this. So many interactions kind of end when we leave, and these spaces have up to a thousand or several hundred people at the minimum!!! On the other hand, I haven't been to a multi-day con since August, so I forgot that people aren't going to post on social media until after they go home and the con ends. I'm slowly scouting people on social media, but unlocking my Twitter makes me want to kill myself... :( :(
- Running a panel must be fun if you're extremely autistic. On Friday I was at 80% of a panel that was basically "G5 Is Good, Actually" and you know what? I might try to give it a second chance... I knew it was unfinished, but not that executive meddling is why it's so awkward to watch :( The movie is insane, I didn't like the Netflix show, I could see the Youtube show and comics...
- Saw a preview of episode 2 of the Fallout Equestria animated adaption. I was very tired so I don't have much to say about it.
- Kind of fucked up but I saw a dead body on the way home on Friday night... There was traffic on the highway which is weird because going home is usually pretty fast, but people were rubbernecking an accident. It was so bad there were 2 ambulances and then I saw a body being covered by a blanket. And I told the Uber driver this is so fucking disrespectful to rubberneck someone dying. It made me hyperaware of my mortality for a moment and really sad
- It was raining so hard on Valentine's day. I flipped my shit for not going in earlier, but it was fine when I came in around 12-1PM. One of the first things I did was grab an espresso cocktail and barely got drunk off it. The bar was playing "I Turn My Camera On" by Spoon which was sadly fitting... Unintentionally framed the rest of the day.
- I forgot to mention I had stickers printed of my art and a carrd as a test run. People seem to like it, but I don't know how many followed the link. I have less than 20 stickers left, I have 100 of a different design on the way though...
- I am not familiar with ANY of the musicians, so I couldn't go to the concerts that were the same time as other panels. I did attend Koa's music panel and it was actually really cool, I already knew about how music parodies or samples other songs but I heard a preview of the upcoming album and it's SOOOOO GOOD.
- I missed the Transformers panel :(
- Um... The big thing is I attended my first room party! I skipped the ones I saw advertised at TFF/TFS because I thought they were just fucking, but when I was charging my phone an older dude said it was just drinking and talking...
- I never heard of Neighcon until now and I realized that this party was full of 4channers. And I found a 4chan post saying the party had the cops called on them Friday night, so I HAD to see this. It wasn't bad and I don't regret it, but it was a very very surreal experience to eat tendies, drink, and watch stupid videos (and later terrible) with /mlp/ people. I kind of realized that maybe room parties are where the magic happens.
- I went to the party a bit after 8PM, then I left around 9PM for the Trade Ya! panel. Since after I went to TFF last year I found out how much I love these events to give away and trade merchandise. Good news: I offloaded nearly everything I brought, which is good because I had no hotel room and was carrying a bag for 8 hours. However when the panel was ending I got really desperate and just announced that KIDS GET SOMETHING FREE. I gave a little girl one bait-quality G1, then I had another lament being 18, and two others were like "I'm 15, does that count?" Yes. Please take this shit away from me. I got Star Catcher, a G1 I forgot the name of, and some official Rarity merch. And a weird official figure of a strangely feminine Big Mac I want to mod, but the hair sucks...
- After the Trade Ya! panel, I went back to the party and that's when it got cursed lol. But someone promised to bring G2 Ivy for me next year, I just need to assemble some good merch to trade for her...
I'm considering giving access to people and making a locked post about the room party, this was simultaneously crazy and mundane.
UHUNKLLLYGBGDSGNF
Feb. 15th, 2026 09:13 amSO. I can't write my con post right now because i'm hung over from harmonycon. That will happen when it happens. I requested 4 days off from work so i can attend all 3 days, but i didn't come home until 2am because my sister rescued me. But 4 days will help since i am running on 3 hours of sleep, alternating between laying in bed and vomiting twice.
The room party wasn't even crazy, there was just free alcohol that i shouldn't have taken advantage of. No more than 3 shots next time. I can't even measure how much i drank, i just drank until i got drunk and i get drunk easy. This ain't it, chief.
The internet feels quieter right now, maybe because the con is still going. Most bluesky posts are by me. It's kind of sad. I still struggle with keeping contacts after the moment ends but i will hunt down some names online when this hangover passes.
The room party wasn't even crazy, there was just free alcohol that i shouldn't have taken advantage of. No more than 3 shots next time. I can't even measure how much i drank, i just drank until i got drunk and i get drunk easy. This ain't it, chief.
The internet feels quieter right now, maybe because the con is still going. Most bluesky posts are by me. It's kind of sad. I still struggle with keeping contacts after the moment ends but i will hunt down some names online when this hangover passes.
Harmonycon...soon
Feb. 11th, 2026 06:56 pmI haven't been posting here lately :(
Harmonycon starts... on the 13th... I'm kind of stressed out because while I don't spent that much money at cons, it's mainly Uber I worry about since I didn't get a hotel room. And my paycheck is really really mid since I missed work during the storm. I plan on attending all 3 days, but I ran into a last minute issue with Sunday because I realized too late (read: last night) that the closing ceremony is at 3-4PM. That is SUPER early and if I theoretically Uber over at 10-11AM, I won't be there very long. But I specifically requested the 15th and 16th off from work because I wanted to try attending all 3 days, so I'm just wondering... What do I even do on the 15th? Not only is 4PM too early to go home, but 4-6PM is peak rush hour traffic so going home will be expensive and take a long time. But I do not live near that part of Dallas so I don't know what's walking distance...? I can walk a few miles on foot but man I have no idea.
My potential "escape route" for Sunday is someone who is at Sonic Expo that I added on Discord is doing a "spinoff" event after the con at 7PM, I could probably follow his group and go there... but otherwise I'm just winging Sunday. Just because the convention ends at 4PM doesn't mean I'll get kicked out of the hotel lol. There should be some stuff going on. My sister's boyfriend will let me know if he works that day too because otherwise I offered for us to do something in Dallas if he's off after 4PM.
Also, I'm off tomorrow before the con. Here's my checklist:
- Haircut
- Pack itabag and extra tote
- Check my tub near my computer for MLP stuff I want to bring or give away
???
Profit
Harmonycon starts... on the 13th... I'm kind of stressed out because while I don't spent that much money at cons, it's mainly Uber I worry about since I didn't get a hotel room. And my paycheck is really really mid since I missed work during the storm. I plan on attending all 3 days, but I ran into a last minute issue with Sunday because I realized too late (read: last night) that the closing ceremony is at 3-4PM. That is SUPER early and if I theoretically Uber over at 10-11AM, I won't be there very long. But I specifically requested the 15th and 16th off from work because I wanted to try attending all 3 days, so I'm just wondering... What do I even do on the 15th? Not only is 4PM too early to go home, but 4-6PM is peak rush hour traffic so going home will be expensive and take a long time. But I do not live near that part of Dallas so I don't know what's walking distance...? I can walk a few miles on foot but man I have no idea.
My potential "escape route" for Sunday is someone who is at Sonic Expo that I added on Discord is doing a "spinoff" event after the con at 7PM, I could probably follow his group and go there... but otherwise I'm just winging Sunday. Just because the convention ends at 4PM doesn't mean I'll get kicked out of the hotel lol. There should be some stuff going on. My sister's boyfriend will let me know if he works that day too because otherwise I offered for us to do something in Dallas if he's off after 4PM.
Also, I'm off tomorrow before the con. Here's my checklist:
- Haircut
- Pack itabag and extra tote
- Check my tub near my computer for MLP stuff I want to bring or give away
???
Profit
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Jan. 26th, 2026 07:13 pmI've been snowed in for 4 days in a row, 2 being days I was supposed to work. But I can't go to work when there's ice on the road. I'm absolutely not complaining that the storm hasn't been hectic for me. The power has stayed on, the temperature is cold but I've just worn multiple pairs of shirts/socks indoors and sleep with 2-3 blankets. I did have to stomach a "Cuban style" (lol) shower and washed my hair in cold water this morning, but it surprisingly became slightly warm and bearable.
My paycheck drops tomorrow, and I'm very likely going to work. My household needs to get groceries. When I go back to work, I'm probably going to request my schedule for the next 2 weeks be rearranged, since I missed half of this week's and I'm worried about my paycheck. Fingers are crossed that I'll get hazard pay, but I doubt it!!!
My website is also back online under a new url.
https://capyhaus.neocities.org/
Hopefully I will get back to "long form" or "high effort" forms of creativity than doomscrolling and venting. The last 2 years have been just, really really bad. Ideally I should have Capy stickers printed by TFF in March.
I also want to bring my Ivy shrine back, but redo it. I think I'm going to have to go for an iframe if/when I make a new layout. I really didn't want to do this, but I have so much canon info and official art I want to store :( But I'll cross that bridge when it happens.
My paycheck drops tomorrow, and I'm very likely going to work. My household needs to get groceries. When I go back to work, I'm probably going to request my schedule for the next 2 weeks be rearranged, since I missed half of this week's and I'm worried about my paycheck. Fingers are crossed that I'll get hazard pay, but I doubt it!!!
My website is also back online under a new url.
https://capyhaus.neocities.org/
Hopefully I will get back to "long form" or "high effort" forms of creativity than doomscrolling and venting. The last 2 years have been just, really really bad. Ideally I should have Capy stickers printed by TFF in March.
I also want to bring my Ivy shrine back, but redo it. I think I'm going to have to go for an iframe if/when I make a new layout. I really didn't want to do this, but I have so much canon info and official art I want to store :( But I'll cross that bridge when it happens.
rebrand progress
Jan. 25th, 2026 01:03 pmSo... I'm very close to my rebrand. I'm iced in, missed work today, and there's been no power outages in my county. I'm thankful I'm in the privileged end of this storm, but despite having so much free time and freedom, I just can't focus to have fun or do my "work". It's really frustrating me. Even when I was a NEET during my early-mid 20s I had this problem even on high dosages of Wellbutrin. I was more productive when I was unemployed in 2024 because I was in a relationship... go figure. Now my brain is just a cheap dopamine-seeking ping pong ball.
I'm chipping at my first rune of 2026, and it goes from humorous to sad. I shouldn't get into how my only relationship fucked me up, but I'm just... distraught how I wasted the last 7 years of my life on a lie. But I shouldn't write about that on a public "entertainment/portfolio" website. So I'm just cutting this melodramatic bullshit.
I'm chipping at my first rune of 2026, and it goes from humorous to sad. I shouldn't get into how my only relationship fucked me up, but I'm just... distraught how I wasted the last 7 years of my life on a lie. But I shouldn't write about that on a public "entertainment/portfolio" website. So I'm just cutting this melodramatic bullshit.
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Stumbled upon this pet rat resource website. This is an old school site from 1999... But the front page notes the owner died in 2018 :(
http://ratfanclub.org/
This is another site that's been online for 30 years and still updated. I sent the owner an email because I discovered it in middle school via a rat care book.
https://wererat.net/
http://ratfanclub.org/
This is another site that's been online for 30 years and still updated. I sent the owner an email because I discovered it in middle school via a rat care book.
https://wererat.net/
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Jan. 22nd, 2026 09:10 amI'm slowly editing older entries. My plans are:
- website stuff will go private, because the links are dead.
- some slightly personal stuff will be access-only. I do want to start making locked entries, but I don't have a circle. I'm considering giving access to anyone who gave me access first, but I'm not active on here enough to make it yet. I plan on ordering stickers with a carrd link that includes DW as a social, but DW still is niche and my attempts at introducing people never stick lol. So a circle / access to locked posts: coming soon, I just don't know when.
-- On that note, I am considering including discussions on more fringe or "fragile" discussions under a lock, but I don't know. Most of my online life was being in manipulative groups or echo chambers ("cult" is a strong word) that punish for wrongthink, so I'm hesitant for making unpopular opinions "centric" to my identity again.
- Half of my mundane posts and to-do lists are also private. I use blogs like twitter, which is the point, but there's so much random bloat in my old posts it's like "ok, whatever".
- I haven't gotten to 2024, but bullshit about my ex will go private too. I just want to leave those 7 years I wasted behind me. One reason I want to make a circle is to have a space to unpack that. I'm not going to police degrees of separation, but I stopped talking to a lot of people because I'm disgusted they still associate with them. Granted, most people don't know how I was treated due to my ex being superficially charming lol. Oh well.
(Not to be shady, but even some public writings I otherwise think are solid have some lies in them... LOL...)
- website stuff will go private, because the links are dead.
- some slightly personal stuff will be access-only. I do want to start making locked entries, but I don't have a circle. I'm considering giving access to anyone who gave me access first, but I'm not active on here enough to make it yet. I plan on ordering stickers with a carrd link that includes DW as a social, but DW still is niche and my attempts at introducing people never stick lol. So a circle / access to locked posts: coming soon, I just don't know when.
-- On that note, I am considering including discussions on more fringe or "fragile" discussions under a lock, but I don't know. Most of my online life was being in manipulative groups or echo chambers ("cult" is a strong word) that punish for wrongthink, so I'm hesitant for making unpopular opinions "centric" to my identity again.
- Half of my mundane posts and to-do lists are also private. I use blogs like twitter, which is the point, but there's so much random bloat in my old posts it's like "ok, whatever".
- I haven't gotten to 2024, but bullshit about my ex will go private too. I just want to leave those 7 years I wasted behind me. One reason I want to make a circle is to have a space to unpack that. I'm not going to police degrees of separation, but I stopped talking to a lot of people because I'm disgusted they still associate with them. Granted, most people don't know how I was treated due to my ex being superficially charming lol. Oh well.
(Not to be shady, but even some public writings I otherwise think are solid have some lies in them... LOL...)
FEエンゲージ3周年
Jan. 20th, 2026 11:36 amSoo... I'm dealing with a light hangover from sleep aide sedative effects, but I will feel bad if I don't post about Engage's 3rd anniversary.
Unfortunately I took my review offline*, but everything went offline yesterday. Most of my opinions from 3 years ago are the same, albeit harshly worded back then. My expectations were really low! But I thought Alear was charming in an ugly way so I went ahead and bought it. I thought it was really fun and a cute game! I've soured a lot on Three Houses, so I'm fine with the 30th anniversary game being a hybrid of FE6+FE1+diet Fateswakening. I have my share of gripes, the manga adaption is more interesting story-wise and the first 8 chapters of the game are piss boring. It very quickly became a special game to me. I may have fallen in love...
I have so much more to say (or copy and paste from my offline shrine) but i have to go to work in an hour... I should probably cross-post serious or subjective takes here.
3 years is baby, but it's weird how it's been that long. My life has changed a lot since then, desk shrine and itabag aside...
Hopefully I'll check here more after I bring my site back online and the con prep stress fades.
*When my website comes back online, I'm going to have a "vault" folder of runes that don't fit my values, but I want to keep online anyway. My Engage review might be in there... I find it very terrible and badly written tbh.
Unfortunately I took my review offline*, but everything went offline yesterday. Most of my opinions from 3 years ago are the same, albeit harshly worded back then. My expectations were really low! But I thought Alear was charming in an ugly way so I went ahead and bought it. I thought it was really fun and a cute game! I've soured a lot on Three Houses, so I'm fine with the 30th anniversary game being a hybrid of FE6+FE1+diet Fateswakening. I have my share of gripes, the manga adaption is more interesting story-wise and the first 8 chapters of the game are piss boring. It very quickly became a special game to me. I may have fallen in love...
I have so much more to say (or copy and paste from my offline shrine) but i have to go to work in an hour... I should probably cross-post serious or subjective takes here.
3 years is baby, but it's weird how it's been that long. My life has changed a lot since then, desk shrine and itabag aside...
Hopefully I'll check here more after I bring my site back online and the con prep stress fades.
*When my website comes back online, I'm going to have a "vault" folder of runes that don't fit my values, but I want to keep online anyway. My Engage review might be in there... I find it very terrible and badly written tbh.
THE LITTLE 3D PLATFORMER THAT TRIED
Jan. 17th, 2026 10:25 amhttps://randomhoohaas.flyingomelette.com/gw/croc/
I expected this to be a simple review, but this is a pretty good deep dive into the 3D platformer genre as a whole during the 90s. It's very long, and reader mode -> read aloud doesn't even cover the entire page, wow.
Here's a sequel, but I haven't looked at it yet.
https://randomhoohaas.flyingomelette.com/gw/croc/2.html
Makes me want to try this game...
I expected this to be a simple review, but this is a pretty good deep dive into the 3D platformer genre as a whole during the 90s. It's very long, and reader mode -> read aloud doesn't even cover the entire page, wow.
Here's a sequel, but I haven't looked at it yet.
https://randomhoohaas.flyingomelette.com/gw/croc/2.html
Makes me want to try this game...
sticker alternatives
Jan. 16th, 2026 01:39 pmThis is old news, but Stickermule has shown their asses again by giving away free pro-ICE merchandise, so people have been scrambling for other suppliers for custom stickers. I'm thinking about ordering stickers of my art by Harmonycon. I can't keep up with a million tweets and my Bluesky feed is already scrambled, so here's what I've found:
https://www.standoutstickers.com/
https://stickerguy.com/
https://thestickybrand.com/en-ca (limited time deals page is worth looking at)
https://thestickerlad.com/home (website looks like a WIP but furry-owned. Prices are ok)
https://stickerninja.com/ (this looks like Stickermule's biggest rival)
https://unionmadestickers.com/en-ca (you can probably use them for non-union stuff lol)
https://stickerblitz.com/ (another rival with good prices)
Vograce orders from China but I've had a good experience ordering sample packs and one-off keychains from them. YMMV. It's better for physical goods. Not sure of any alternatives that let you do one-off orders.
ETA 1/17: Found some more options.
https://wiki.scumsuck.com/resources:stickers (guide on how to print your stickers at home. Lists options for scanners and paper to buy, etc.)
https://zapcreatives.com/en-us (UK based)
ETA 1/24
https://bearandbeagle.store/ (furry-owned, worth noting because you can input a "due date" for an upcoming convention)
https://www.copybaracreations.com/contact (also furry-owned and convention-oriented, currently no TOS / quote guide but you can contact for one)
https://stickerjerk.com/
https://stickerapp.com/
https://www.stickerbunnies.com/ (I've read good experiences on Bsky, but you have to email to start instead of using an on-site form)
After I edit some art with a signature, I might "trial run" some of these? I have a few paychecks before Harmonycon... Hours are tight but some of these are cheap enough.
This issue with Stickermule is it's the only option I know that lets you print one-off tshirts. I don't know who else does that. Redbubble's prices for making a private design and buying it yourself are inflated.
Side note, is there an external program or some other way to mass-edit DW entires? I have some cleaning up to do and want to mass-private / lock posts without viewing each one individually....
https://www.standoutstickers.com/
https://stickerguy.com/
https://thestickybrand.com/en-ca (limited time deals page is worth looking at)
https://thestickerlad.com/home (website looks like a WIP but furry-owned. Prices are ok)
https://stickerninja.com/ (this looks like Stickermule's biggest rival)
https://unionmadestickers.com/en-ca (you can probably use them for non-union stuff lol)
https://stickerblitz.com/ (another rival with good prices)
Vograce orders from China but I've had a good experience ordering sample packs and one-off keychains from them. YMMV. It's better for physical goods. Not sure of any alternatives that let you do one-off orders.
ETA 1/17: Found some more options.
https://wiki.scumsuck.com/resources:stickers (guide on how to print your stickers at home. Lists options for scanners and paper to buy, etc.)
https://zapcreatives.com/en-us (UK based)
ETA 1/24
https://bearandbeagle.store/ (furry-owned, worth noting because you can input a "due date" for an upcoming convention)
https://www.copybaracreations.com/contact (also furry-owned and convention-oriented, currently no TOS / quote guide but you can contact for one)
https://stickerjerk.com/
https://stickerapp.com/
https://www.stickerbunnies.com/ (I've read good experiences on Bsky, but you have to email to start instead of using an on-site form)
After I edit some art with a signature, I might "trial run" some of these? I have a few paychecks before Harmonycon... Hours are tight but some of these are cheap enough.
This issue with Stickermule is it's the only option I know that lets you print one-off tshirts. I don't know who else does that. Redbubble's prices for making a private design and buying it yourself are inflated.
Side note, is there an external program or some other way to mass-edit DW entires? I have some cleaning up to do and want to mass-private / lock posts without viewing each one individually....
My next paycheck is tomorrow, and it's going to be the pay from how much I worked on Christmas. So this is going to be a fat one. My hours later this month were cut, but doing some basic calculations tell me that the paychecks will be average, not terrible. This paycheck will likely carry me before the next mid ones this month. Hopefully my hours in early February will be decent, since my paycheck drops before the con lol. So tomorrow I'm going to buy my badge for Harmonycon, commission an artist for a badge, pay my personal bills a second time, pay household bills if they weren't already, and put some money aside property taxes later this year. Depending on how much money I have left after required stuff, I may donate to KHinsider since I didn't on Christmas.
I unfortunately haven't gotten my W2 for last year yet because my job's internal system for that changed. Really annoying, because I requested 4 days off for Harmonycon (Feb 13-15 and the 16th to recharge before work), and I'd like to have that return as "padding" for my lost hours, lol. I read on Reddit that the W2s for other employees will be posted around the 15th? So I'll check later this week. I signed up for email alerts, but I never heard of this site W2s are posted on. JFC, what happened to mailing or being in the employee panel?
I'm close to done on my site rebrand, but I'm having trouble ripping the bandaid off. I'm redoing my about page, and when I finish that I'll start my "offline tour" before I swap URLs, send out emails, and be free from now on. Harmonycon is an all ages event so I won't leave advertisements for my site there, but I'm considering printing stickers of my art to leave around the Hyatt for funzies. I'm debating on leaving a signature on them though, since I don't have an "all ages" platform now that DeviantART is in the shitter. OTOH, the Harmonycon Discord is mostly adults and older teenagers, I doubt there's going to be many kid-kids lol?
On that note, I popped in the Harmonycon Discord and saw someone from Sonic Expo there, which is something I'm starting to really enjoy about going to local cons. Obviously they're HUGE and have thousands of people, but local stuff will have recurring vendors and faces. An artists alley vendor at TFF/TFS was at Sonic Expo and recognized me, even. lol. After Harmonycon I'll request time off for TFF. Two cons in February and March makes me feel hectic but I need the minor stress to focus.
My inbox has been piling up. It's past 11PM but I have an afternoon-evening shift tomorrow so I can stay up late. I won't go to bed until I clear it out, lol.
EDIT: I AM DONE!!!!! FINALLY!!! When I was up I'm going to answer some Discord DMs, and hopefully send more out. I am not spending this year in hiding.
I unfortunately haven't gotten my W2 for last year yet because my job's internal system for that changed. Really annoying, because I requested 4 days off for Harmonycon (Feb 13-15 and the 16th to recharge before work), and I'd like to have that return as "padding" for my lost hours, lol. I read on Reddit that the W2s for other employees will be posted around the 15th? So I'll check later this week. I signed up for email alerts, but I never heard of this site W2s are posted on. JFC, what happened to mailing or being in the employee panel?
I'm close to done on my site rebrand, but I'm having trouble ripping the bandaid off. I'm redoing my about page, and when I finish that I'll start my "offline tour" before I swap URLs, send out emails, and be free from now on. Harmonycon is an all ages event so I won't leave advertisements for my site there, but I'm considering printing stickers of my art to leave around the Hyatt for funzies. I'm debating on leaving a signature on them though, since I don't have an "all ages" platform now that DeviantART is in the shitter. OTOH, the Harmonycon Discord is mostly adults and older teenagers, I doubt there's going to be many kid-kids lol?
On that note, I popped in the Harmonycon Discord and saw someone from Sonic Expo there, which is something I'm starting to really enjoy about going to local cons. Obviously they're HUGE and have thousands of people, but local stuff will have recurring vendors and faces. An artists alley vendor at TFF/TFS was at Sonic Expo and recognized me, even. lol. After Harmonycon I'll request time off for TFF. Two cons in February and March makes me feel hectic but I need the minor stress to focus.
My inbox has been piling up. It's past 11PM but I have an afternoon-evening shift tomorrow so I can stay up late. I won't go to bed until I clear it out, lol.
EDIT: I AM DONE!!!!! FINALLY!!! When I was up I'm going to answer some Discord DMs, and hopefully send more out. I am not spending this year in hiding.
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