I smoke weed if I can get my hands on it which is rarer are rarer these days, I snort crushed uo concerta, doesn’t do much anymore, had better luck actually taking it as prescribed, I used to feel something when I did.

I used to hang out with people but then they got their own lives, I sometimes play video games. Recently its gotten to a point where I dont habe much energy so I just end up sleeping. I sleep like 12 hours a day normally, since my body physically takes that long to recover after a day of doing stuff.

Unfortunately I’m disabled, as much as I would love to grind the trades and then live as cheaply as possible so I didn’t need to work, my body just isnt good enough. Choose sitting behind a terminal bashing the keyboard for that reason.

I’m on leave from work cause I nearly got fired, truthfully I’m too disabled to be doing thay much ohyically labor at the speed they want. But what choice do I have, I’m nervous as I go back on the 29th, and I’m worse now. I ball my eyes out a lot. Its not so much about I have to work forever, but its the fact there’s nothing left really, like if I did work retail forever what is the point exactly. Life is the passage of time, and how you spend that. If I spent 99% of it in some box all day, pushing Freight I can’t afford, getting yelled at by people richer than me. As I get sicker and sadder. What’s the point. Its so bad I disassosite, I lost 3 entire weeks of my life, I did not remember any of it. Just gone like it never happened, my brain deleted it. This happens so much, the time between last April and this April genunily feel like a couple of months ago to me. I just want more than this, anything more then this. I want out.

I’m at that point where I’m just hatec by everyone. -

Let me guess, it won’t work with Linux once so ever without a propetairy nvidia kernel

My honest issue is the us makes everything so impossible, like I get fussed at for being more than 5 minutes late, and can get written up, I could only imagine what I would get if a bus got delayed. There are places I could reasonable bike to but none of them pay enough to cover rent. So I drive my ass to target, and unfortunately I have a car that takes up space it sucks but the us needs massive retooling everything here is systemically fucked

I’m just so burnt out, like something gotta change, genuinely not doing well mentally as a result

I feel like the end goal is us to be using thin client that can’t even browse the web, we will have a content slop scrolled in the middle, you swipe right and you have an AI chat box to search information, send messages, it all has to be done with AI. Oh and you need scan your ID and pay subscriptions for each AI feature you enable, you will own nothing and work all day you won’t have time to browse the web so the AI will do it for you

That’s what I’m saying, it would be more complicated than a dongle, the PS5 has some sorta system that handles this, it would essientally be a device that supports it, that just decodes and encodes the video feed, as dumb as this sounds it’d the only soluations to use on most TVs

At this point just make an “adapter” that captures the disaply port signal and outputs it from a “supported” device

Is this in canada, I worked at the us Walmart and our registers used Java and our self checkouts ran windows 10 under Walmart UI.

Can I have them

This actually looks fun. Might give it a play

Take care, and he’s hoping for you for a brighter future. /hug I feel like I already ruined my life, the second I sat in the driver seat that day my life was over, everything was over.

I have been waiting 12 years nothing has ever gotten better short things lead to long term truama it seems

My issue with mastodon is it’s strayed so much from its vision. I use misskey but there is not a ton of clients for it at the moment.

It just seems impossible, I’m also a peice of shit, no one should miss me, people will but abusers can be loved unfortunately. I’m definitely going to hell when I pull that trigger if he’ll exist

That line never picks up I know what your talking about

99.9% of crisis lines in the us are eaither inaccessible or call the cops on suicidal people since only the ones that calls cops get funding